Day 281

Dear diary

Today was another day of good and bad news and since I am the write and so far the only reader of this novel I have decide to just mix of the news and tell then in one story. We have found the airport where the planes arrived from but the place has already been destroyed by the aliens, which of course is sad and bad for humans but we found a lot of food to eat and other good things such as ammo for the guns and rifles we are using to defend ourself with. Guess the aliens did not destroy it as they did not know what we used it for. My legs hurts like crazy now and I am glad to finally rest again after all our walking the past days. I am sure my baby is thinking that too. Niklas is trying to figure out if this was the airport the places was from or if it is an other one. The high command is not answering his calls so I guess he is also worried if things are bad with the army. I am a little worried myself but as long as I am with Niklas I do not care much about the events around us no matter if it is sad, more destruction or what ever those aliens can find out. It been a long time since I had the chance to focus on the star without fall asleep right away so I guess I will do that after writing this diary. The baby is for sure alive and kicking so maybe I will try to get Niklas to join us so we can be a family again before bed time.

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Day 277

Dear diary

It has been a quiet week since the civilians left the area. Niklas has been sending out his men trying to get the back but it has been hard to track them plus those they found was still not ready to return so now we are just trying to live our own lives even that high command told Niklas to find so many civilians as possible. I am confused about why Niklas and the men did not follow them. I even asked Niklas about and he said there is nothing safe around her so as long the food is in from of fish and others things then he would not leave. I guess that people can have their mind set in one thing until some event changes it and today we watched 2 planes fly over our heads. Niklas quickly decide he want us to follow them even we had no idea of where they came from or where they was going. I do not mind about this but we have to think of my pregnancy so I cannot march or what type of walking the soldiers normal do. Maybe if we are lucky they are guiding us to the army we are waiting for or something even better. Niklas says they have to be close to an airport or aircraft carrier even that our minds do not remember any airports nearby or water big enough for the carrier. We have been walking 30kilometres the way they was flying and both my feet and belly hurts so badly. I wish we could find a car to drive. I forgot to say it was a protector plane or rather two so they would not be alone according to what Niklas know about the planes with such short notices. I want to sleep now so I can walk even more tomorrow.

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Day 271

Dear diary

Now we are only 4 people in the camp. Do not worry, we have not been attack by aliens or other ways of getting killed by the guy, I think his name was Matt, who was the temporary leader while we checked out the outpost, has been talking and asking the civilians around us if they believe in Niklas and his 3 remaining soldiers can defend them against the aliens once more if they come back. Surprisingly none of the civilians except me feels safe even I was the one who almost get raped and the only person who is pregnant as most of the others is guys. Niklas tried to calm down the people but it did not work so instead he tried to use force which was a bad idea as it just ended up making the other people feel like they was force to stay even that Niklas just tried to explain them that things was not safe outside the camp. In the end I had to step in to stop him and Matt from fighting each other which made Niklas ask me if I wanted to stay with him or go with the civilians. My heart dropped as I felt that it was the most stupid question he could ask in the whole wide world as I love him so much that I will stay until the end and beside how would the civilians defend themselves without guns or anything else with power. Matt said that he would rather take the chance to find the army we was waiting for instead of staying in the area after the aliens attack. So far we had no reason to believe that the aliens would attack again after they was fought back the first time and beside the camp was still a mess now so why would they even think humans would live there and lastly why would they come outside the town once more. Matt was not giving up his plan off leaving so they left without us and now I am back to sleep under some blanket we use as tent and all is more quiet without the 15 or so civilians also trying to sleep.

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Day 269

Dear diary

Guess one accident never comes alone even it has been a few days since Niklas forces out one of his soldiers out of the camp because he tried to rape me. I am still glad Niklas managed to spare his life and who knows maybe he comes back. Anyway the reason I said that one accident never happens alone is because today the aliens found us and destroyed most of the camp so even it is raining I am sleeping outside tonight. They destroyed our camp pretty badly but for some reason only a few of us was hurt doing the fight so not sure what they really wanted to do as if I was an enemy force, trying to conquer a world I would not stop after destroying the camp. Anyway I am happy they did and tomorrow we will start to rebuild the things as Niklas finds the place too good to leave behind. I am not sure I should write this but I overheard Niklas do a count of ammo and it does not sound good so I hope some army soon arrives and save us unless we have to go somewhere to find it. The only problem about that is that we are round 2 days from the mall and as you know the mall is not safe for us as it is inside the town. I guess I just have to start praying for the good things to start happening even that I am super happy Niklas and I is together. The attack made me believe in god once more. I am normally not praying every evening but starting today I am and will not stop before the war is over or I am dead. I hope the night will be peaceful as the rain really makes my eyes heavy even that my belly is being kicked from the inside.

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Day 263

Dear diary

I do not know how to write this down on paper, let alone clean it from my mind as I am so chocked about what happened that I do not know what to say or think. Niklas did the right thing by not shooting him as even we are still a man less because of it then we cannot waste human lives when there is an alien war going on. I guess I can make myself write it now. One of Niklas’s men tried to rape me earlier today by forcing down my pants and panties before bending me over. I managed to scream for help before he could do anything naughty against me and in the next Niklas is there pulling him away. The man said sorry right away but Niklas did not listen at first and just pulled him away from me and the tent so I could get my clothes back on in peace. A heard a gunshot and for a moment I thought he had decide to shot the man but he was just going to explain every body that we was not going to do things like this in the camp and then he decides to kick the man out of the camp with only his outfit, a small handgun, a knife and some food. The man asked to come back and he even tried to look at me with sorry eyes but I was too hurt back then to even care about his faint. I am glad that Niklas did not shoot him even I was the one who was getting hurt and I know I am repeating myself but we need to show ourself as humans or the aliens will win soon. I hope that I can sleep without nightmares now.

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Day 257

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The soldier, Niklas and I have no been at the place high command told Niklas to go for 4 days and even with all the searching that Niklas and his soldiers has done, we have found nothing that indicates that their have been soldiers here recently. The noice from the building slowly breaking into more pieces is more annoying that the sound of the shooting starts so I have asked Niklas when we are going back to the camp and at first he was like that I could just have stayed back there if I did not want to be here in the first place but now after high command could not give him new info, he has decide to full back as he felt the civilians was in need of him instead. The high command sounded pissed in the other end but Niklas just turned it off and kiss my forehead and belly before walking out to his men and told them to pack their things so they were ready to go back to the forest at first sun light tomorrow. Not one of them asked or said anything against the order so guess I am not the only one who wants to go home. Of other things then no much have happened here, last night it rained but house we are sleeping in, managed to keep us dry even it had a big hole in the roof. The baby is still kicking but I have no idea how it is inside there now as I do not have any midwife or books to read about pregnancy because of those stupid aliens. I asked Niklas if we could go to the library in a new by town but he would not waste resources on trying to find a bot about and because I did not want to argue with him so quickly after our last one I decide to let him win. I think everything is going well anyway because why else would my belly grow and still being able to feel him kicking. I guess Niklas will sleep with a hand on my belly again tonight.

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Day 251

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Today I am so annoyed if not pissed as today I overheard Niklas getting new orders from high command and they were to help some soldiers in an outpost 2 days away from here, just because every thing is too slow here. I do not mind that Niklas has to do his job as the army tell him to do but that he is going to try doing it without telling me he is leaving and when I finally make him say that he is leaving then I cannot get permission to join him because he finds me a perfect leader for the civilians. Like I care about any of them if I am not having Niklas around me too. Then Niklas uses the excuse that I am pregnant which was the final straw and I tell him that he is not going anywhere without me. The yelling voice of mine, makes him finally understand how much I care for him and that I am not leaving his side again. One of the other civilians overhears our argument and quickly says that he can be the leader while we travel to the outpost to figure out what is going on down there. Niklas want to say no to the man but he knows that he is out of options so we are leaving tomorrow and the man, Matt, I guess is the leader of the civilians until we return. My eyes are full of tears at the moment and I am sad that Niklas and I had to argue about his job, guess I just cannot continue my life without him and if he is going to die, I want to be near him with it happens.

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Day 241

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It is now the first evening in the forest near spring water lake and we had fish for dinner as the lake is full of fish. I guess the numbers has grown a lot doing the days without people having chance to do any fishing. The fish taste so much better than the can food that we have been having lately. The camp is still pretty small, I think we are around 15 civilians and five soldiers including Niklas and I. I do not know how their high command expected the five soldier to search an entire town for survivors but I am not a soldier so I do not get to ask those questions. We have not been attack by the aliens yet so guess that is good. I hope I am not jinx it now that I said it. The place is already nice as we have a few tents for all the people, Niklas told me to join the civilians in the tents as he and the soldiers had to sleep outside tonight. Guess that would be the first night since we found each other that he will not sleep with his hands on my belly. I wanted to sleep outside but he was not sure it would be good for the baby. I am the female here and the baby have survived attacks from aliens and such already, so I am not worried about it, beside I have missed him so much while he has been gone so I do not want to leave him. Anyway my energy is low from all the camping set up and so on, so will sleep now.

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Day 239

Dear diary

Niklas has finally got permission to travel to the spring water lake and forest area by their high command and I don’t think it is not a moment too early as food is disappearing quickly when you are so many people. We still have plenty but we need something from the trip too as it might take a day or two to get there when we have to hide for the aliens and their machines. I am feeling ready to go but we have decide to go early in the morning instead of this evening. The shooting stars have appeared once more and this time it was just a single one so I believe that it was a good omen about tomorrow instead of more of those aliens. Yes, Niklas talks about that the army has a theory about that the shooting stars was how they entered our world without showing up on our radars and such. I wanted to asked him more about it but my mind was a bit worried to continue as he was one of the people who found the comets who had hit the earth. I am feeling more safe now as he kissed me like he did the day he asked to marry me and he still has plans to do so if the high command will allow him. I guess I have to wait but he promised to be protecting us until then. I asked why not now but he says it is hard to do without a priest which made me ask the other civilians if any of them was a priest but none of them was so like I said I guess to wait. That was the major events for today I guess.

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Day 233

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Niklas tells me we cannot go to spring water lake and forrest yet because they have been told to keep searching for survivors and food in the area so the army can set up a new base in the area soon. I asked him if we could go back to the bunker, as I was sure the aliens would not attack the same place twice but Niklas told me that was the first place that he had been searching for me and with all the death people in the area, he would not go there again. He continued and told me that the bunker had also been hit by the laser so not much space for the survivors. I guess I understand his problems, he is a good leader to his men and he is doing his best to help the civilians too. I am started to wonder what is going to happen to the earth, are we going to win the war and will people keep working together afterwards or are we going to lose the war and get destroyed. If we get destroyed what will the aliens do to the earth, make it a parking lot for their space ships? Or maybe they are here to save the nature that we could help. I hope this will be the last wars as all the innocent people who has died so far, cannot died in vain for world peace. My mind is so crazy now that I cannot sleep even I need to because my baby needs me fresh for whatever events which will happened tomorrow.

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