Day 241

Dear diary

It is now the first evening in the forest near spring water lake and we had fish for dinner as the lake is full of fish. I guess the numbers has grown a lot doing the days without people having chance to do any fishing. The fish taste so much better than the can food that we have been having lately. The camp is still pretty small, I think we are around 15 civilians and five soldiers including Niklas and I. I do not know how their high command expected the five soldier to search an entire town for survivors but I am not a soldier so I do not get to ask those questions. We have not been attack by the aliens yet so guess that is good. I hope I am not jinx it now that I said it. The place is already nice as we have a few tents for all the people, Niklas told me to join the civilians in the tents as he and the soldiers had to sleep outside tonight. Guess that would be the first night since we found each other that he will not sleep with his hands on my belly. I wanted to sleep outside but he was not sure it would be good for the baby. I am the female here and the baby have survived attacks from aliens and such already, so I am not worried about it, beside I have missed him so much while he has been gone so I do not want to leave him. Anyway my energy is low from all the camping set up and so on, so will sleep now.

Good night diary

Day 239

Dear diary

Niklas has finally got permission to travel to the spring water lake and forest area by their high command and I don’t think it is not a moment too early as food is disappearing quickly when you are so many people. We still have plenty but we need something from the trip too as it might take a day or two to get there when we have to hide for the aliens and their machines. I am feeling ready to go but we have decide to go early in the morning instead of this evening. The shooting stars have appeared once more and this time it was just a single one so I believe that it was a good omen about tomorrow instead of more of those aliens. Yes, Niklas talks about that the army has a theory about that the shooting stars was how they entered our world without showing up on our radars and such. I wanted to asked him more about it but my mind was a bit worried to continue as he was one of the people who found the comets who had hit the earth. I am feeling more safe now as he kissed me like he did the day he asked to marry me and he still has plans to do so if the high command will allow him. I guess I have to wait but he promised to be protecting us until then. I asked why not now but he says it is hard to do without a priest which made me ask the other civilians if any of them was a priest but none of them was so like I said I guess to wait. That was the major events for today I guess.

Good night diary

Day 233

Dear diary

Niklas tells me we cannot go to spring water lake and forrest yet because they have been told to keep searching for survivors and food in the area so the army can set up a new base in the area soon. I asked him if we could go back to the bunker, as I was sure the aliens would not attack the same place twice but Niklas told me that was the first place that he had been searching for me and with all the death people in the area, he would not go there again. He continued and told me that the bunker had also been hit by the laser so not much space for the survivors. I guess I understand his problems, he is a good leader to his men and he is doing his best to help the civilians too. I am started to wonder what is going to happen to the earth, are we going to win the war and will people keep working together afterwards or are we going to lose the war and get destroyed. If we get destroyed what will the aliens do to the earth, make it a parking lot for their space ships? Or maybe they are here to save the nature that we could help. I hope this will be the last wars as all the innocent people who has died so far, cannot died in vain for world peace. My mind is so crazy now that I cannot sleep even I need to because my baby needs me fresh for whatever events which will happened tomorrow.

Good night diary

Day 229

Dear diary

The past two days has been wonderful as I am together with Niklas once more and we are talking about everything which has happened to me and our future child. We have not talked much about his life since we last was together but guess I do not want to know either. I also feel more safe with Niklas around than I was with the stranger soldiers. Not that I did not respect the others I just felt that they did see me as a woman and you never know what kind of things goes though the head of a man who had been though war. Niklas is the leader of the group so the rest of soldiers follows his command and at the moment we are searching for two things, survivors and food. I showed them the mall and we got a lot of food from there but as I knew when I was with the civilians the mall are not a safe place for us to be so we need a new place. Niklas says that the aliens are mainly attacking towns full of people so maybe we will travel the water spring lake and the forest around it as we can catch fish there and we will not be near any town. I find it a good idea but I need help but he says he will help me in anyway he can. I guess Niklas is so happy he found me alive as his hands does not leave my belly once doing the night except for the hours he has to guarding the area we sleep in. I am so happy that he found me when he did as things would have been bad if he had not. Thanks god. 

Good night diary

Day 227

Dear diary

Today I am so happy that I did not go back to Niklas base but instead went to the mall instead as you never guess who found me there. Niklas plus a small group of soldiers, they are the only one who survived the attack on their base which was attack around the same time as the outpost I had been living in. Niklas had just returned to the base because been called back but by the aliens attacked the base before he could reach it and he happened to find the man who had been answering all my calls about Niklas and he had told Niklas about the outpost. Niklas had searched the outpost and had been super worried for me when he could not find my body between the dead. He decide to go to the mall after a few days of thinking and now we are together once more. Of course I have told him the happy news of him being the father of our child and he was so happy. Brain was happy too as he started kicking so much, all the men got a chance to feel the life from him, removing some of the sorrow they was carrying. Their eyes told me enough so have not asked Niklas about their missions and now he is sleeping next to me while holding a hand on my belly. I guess I will sleep now too as I have no idea of what tomorrow will bring to us.

Good night diary

Day 223

Dear diary

I should be dead but somehow I am alive. I should be looking for food and not write this stupid diary. Sorry diary I cannot focus my mind right now as the outpost was just attacked but somehow I escaped by getting down in the servers and have not seen a soul in 4 hours now and the sounds from explosions and what ever else a battle brings has died out too. I am so alone now and I am wondering if I should go back to the ground level as I am never going to be found by either humans or aliens down here. I only have the gun that Adam gave me, maybe I should just use it and end my life as I am so alone in this world and war. No news from Niklas, Viola or the army bass for that matter. No I will not give up I will travel to Niklas base tomorrow and wait for him there but first I need to sleep if my mind will let me sleep and escape those horrors which just happened. I am not sure why we did not get sent there in the first place, maybe the soldiers was too out number to save us or maybe they was enjoying having women nearby. Beep, no one gave me a chance to survive doing the attack but still I m the only one alive now. I lost my phone so cannot listen to music to calm my head and I am sure even you can feel my scared feelings now, my dear baby. Mommy loves you and I will survive for you and Niklas. Sorry I even thought of ending my life, I won’t do that mistake again. I most sleep now and stop thinking, or rather the other way around.

Good night diary

Day 211

Dear diary

I completely forgot to write you today, guess my mind was somewhere else as life is just slow here and it was a nice dream until a certain baby woke me up with his tiny steps from inside my belly. I am so happy that I started cry when it first happened earlier today, right after a former midwife told me that it was the time for me to stop working and focus on myself and the baby. She told me, it was pretty normal to feel them now so I was so happy I felt them too as I have been a bit worried about him inside. Yes I have the feeling it is a boy and I will named him after my father Brian if Niklas returns if not I will name him Niklas after his father. I hope his favourite colour will be Turquoise like me so he can get the rock my father gave me so he can keep the family legacy. I hope you get a longer life than your grandfather and promise me, no cars. Yes little one, you need to sleep now so I can be fresh and full of energy tomorrow and take care of you while waiting for your father. I know I know, you want to meet him and if I was laying on my belly I am sure you would carry me all the way to him this instant but it is night and we need to sleep now in the moonlight and the sound of Mike Oldfield playing his famous Moonlight shadow once more.

Good night diary

Day 199

Dear diary

If I did not know better I would say that the war was already over as nothing have happened the past days other than a small trip to the mall to check for food and other necessary things which I told you about yesterday. I am still sore in my body for the walk even it was not that far or hard but we have to walk together. I am not sure if it is the hormones from the pregnancy or if I am really happy but I am started to smile a lot more and the eyes that I felt looking down on me has either stopped or have never been there in the first place. Guess the only issue I am having at the moment was Adam attempt to become my new husband as for some reason he likes my looks even that I am with another mans baby. I told him right away that even I am having no idea about Niklas then he is never going to take his place as he is way to old for me. Adam looked fine after a firm no and I had no reason to pull my gun, guess he was still missing his old wife or what he had before the aliens as seen him drink a lot when talking about love. I miss Niklas so much and I hope that he soon finds his way here or somehow contacts me. Anyway time for my even music as they shooting stars has appeared again, I wonder if they really are rocks falling to the shy or something else but I am not in mood to focus on the bad things as I want my child to feel great inside my tummy.

Good night diary

Day 197

Dear diary

We have now been at the outpost for few days and it is kinda small so I have no idea why we did not just stayed in the mall when the food was there and other than no soldiers around, life was pretty good. Adam has decide that I will be the second in command of the civilians. Not sure why that matters so much to him now we are part of an army group so we do not get to decide anything anymore plus I am not able to hide my pregnancy anymore even I wanted to because I feel like people are looking down on me after learning it, maybe they have been looking at me all the time and maybe they are tried of this war against the aliens. Which reminds me it is funny to think that around 200 days ago no one knew anything about aliens and we was all in peace with the universe while still fighting ourselves and by ourselves I mean human against human. Now we are walking together if the news from the soldiers are believed. Before that it was the army with the strongest weapon who would win. I am not sure I wanted a war against the aliens but I am happy that the world connected when needed instead of acting like monkeys. I am still surprised that we have not lost the war yet even after all the reddish lasers on the sky. Speaking of skies, I am going to sleep with music in my ears as those annoying shooting stars has reappeared, guess it is good to have your music collection somewhere else than all that streaming places which are down now. Too bad, I did not do that to any movies or I would for sure have been a popular woman. I will listen to the music even the soldiers told me not to as we need to be prepared in case the aliens attack, don’t worry my love, the headset is far from noise cancelling so I will wake up by your first scream. Night my dear fellow humans.

Good night diary

Day 193

Dear diary

Today I almost shot a man, not that I am killer or that I wanted to but a group of soldier appeared in the edge of my sight from my view point at the rooftop of the mall. They was suddenly there and the way they acted when I noticed them I thought they were aliens. I hit the ground beside the first man and he has already laughed twice with Adam about it so guess he is not complaining about a female shooter. They talked about that they have a small outpost not far from here and they was here searching for food. I used the chance to ask if they knew anything about Niklas or his base but they was from far away here so they did not even know what area they was in. Even they did not bring any news about Niklas I am still happy that they are army guys as I felt that they are way better to defend us than we are. We will stay here for the night and tomorrow we will travel to their outpost where I will maybe use the secret lines to call Niklas base and get some news. I miss him and my mother but I have no idea of how to call her, she is not answering her phone but I do not know if it is the network or her phone itself. I will try to get some rest as it is starting to get hard walking with this baby and need some energy for the walk tomorrow if there is far to the outpost.

Good night diary

Day 191

Dear diary

I guess things are going the right way as even we have found no outpost yet we have made our own as we have managed to travel to a mall which is not completely destroyed and still have food in big quantities so even we not are 30 people, things look bright again. Of course we still need to be on a look out for the aliens as I am sure they will know we will search for places like that unless they do not sleep or eat like we do. Sometimes the nights are noisy as hell so I guess they maybe are not or maybe they are so many that they can rest the day soldiers and attack with new ones doing the night. We have still not been able to see them so I have no idea what we are fighting against. I do not really want to know as even I am on guard duty I would prefer not to fire my gun as I am worried what the sounds will do to my baby, speaking of which it is getting harder because of my belly to walk around and I am a bit worried that the others have notice my belly and think about leaving me behind. Good that we found the mall with so much food and so far leader Adam has not told me any bad rumours about me as I feel he would be the first to tell me if the other’s was annoyed on me. Maybe my status as shooter still protects me, who knows. Anyway I need to sleep now so I can wake up at 3am for another night guard.

Good night diary

Day 181

Dear diary

Time flies even that there is war around you. The little resistance that have found me, has grown big 5 members the past day so now we are 25 people. The new ones had guns and without giving me a choice it was decide that I should at least have one of the guns as they all talk about how good I am at shooting. Good thing the guns first arrived here today as my energy has been so low that I worried I would have shot myself in the foot if handling a gun. We also found a working radio and while it is peace and quiet here, they talk about that several towns around the world has already been burned down to the ground but we, humans, are not giving up. The Americans are still going nuts with all the army equipment so there is a chance we will make out of this alive. Not sure I believe the news as the news reporter repeated the same news 3 hours later. I know the leader is with on that. Which reminds me I have not introduce you to him yet, his name is Adam, he is 53 years old and a former sales man before the little alien war we have at the moment which also reminds me that I have to cross out Adam for my child as I am not sure Adam, the leader would think highly of it. Anyway we talked and decided to turn off the radio to save the power we had plus we had to start looking for more food or maybe a military outpost because the growth of the group, takes it told on the food. Guess that was all that happened today.

Good night diary

Day 179

Dear diary

My name is Liv which means life in danish so far I am told which is exactly what I am trying to be, a life that won’t give up no matter how much the odds is against you. As you know I have not found any food the last 2 days so I have not been asleep either but I am saved once more as a group of people found me and I am now together with 20 people. They have food enough even for me. I am so grateful that they found me and save me as I am not sure how long I would have survived alone after the food had disappeared. The group of people is a mix of old men, young women and several kids but even we have almost no weapons to defend ourselves than they talk about forming a resistance just like people did doing the cold war and the second world war of course. Their leader has told me that even I am new, then some members of the resistance has heard stories about that I can shoot, so I won’t be the lowest person in the food chain. Guess Niklas idea of learning me to shot finally paid off even I am yet to see any guns or rifles between the people here but maybe this is just a small outpost of some bigger network of resistance fighters. I got a soft bed to sleep in today which is for sure better than those rocks I use to sleep since leaving the bunker. I hope my mother has been found a group too and maybe even Niklas is leader or something in this resistance. The words from my fingers is started to ramble so guess I will sleep now but so many things happened today and it is hard to get it out at one time.

Good night diary

Day 173

Dear diary

I have walked around in the left overs from my town in around a week now, survived by eat food which has been left behind when the aliens attacks. I wonder if I should try look for someway to escape the town or if I should stay here in case Niklas gets back. I also find it crazy that I have not found any fellow humans yet but I guess that is good as then I have plenty of food myself and the baby. I am started to think of names for it as I have no way of knowing or figuring out what sex my kid is having, sometimes I even wonder if the child inside is still alive after our crazy journey together. Anyway back to the names I am think about Adam if it is a boy or Eve if it is a girl and before you judge me, dear reader. I am not super religious or anything like that but I feel that if I survives the madness we are going though now then I am for sure going to show god a little fate for a change. The sky is full of beautiful stars tonight and if you close enough at the stars you can forget the troubles of the day for a moment. Of course the red flashes appears too as a reminder of what is going on. Guess I need to sleep now as you never know when you get the chance again.

Good night diary

Day 167

Dear diary

I am writing this in cold rain while being all alone. I am sure you wonder what has happened and I am even surprised that I managed to get out as the bunker was like a maze especially when you are being chase by aliens. I am still shaking by all the events and I am surprised I managed to get out with my diary, my father’s stone but not my mind. I wonder if she survived. I have not seen people since the attack and I am hiding in some bushes under a big which use to have lots of homeless people around. I do not know what to do as for a moment I felt safe even with the eyes from the men on me. I only know one thing I need to survive for Niklas and the baby. I wonder how the aliens found us as the bunker is deep under ground. Maybe it was 3 floors down in a horseshoe form ground plan plus the soldier was guarding the entrance all the time. I have to ask Niklas about that when I find him or rather when he finds him. I know it is not safe to sleep alone but I am so tried after all the running and with a baby inside it is not so easy.

Good night diary

Day 163

Dear diary

I have only been in the bunker for less than 2 weeks and even without my mother’s crazy talk then I feel like the soldiers is watching me with lust as I am one of the few younger women around and I am sure that some of the men misses their wives and holding her close. I hope Niklas can keep his focus on me wherever he is. I longs for his touch, his kiss and watching him smile but at least I feel safe her in the bunker even for the looks of the men. We are not told about how the war with the aliens is going but I can see that not all of the men who leaves for the war comes back alive but at least it seems like we have food enough as so far I have been able to gain some weight and even with a baby inside all seems good about that. I can see the baby walking around in the bunker for me but I prefer that the aliens is sent back where they comes from so we can return to our normal lives again. My mother is taking much of my awaken time so even I say I miss Niklas, it been a while since I last tried to contact him or rather find someone who can help me with that as I have not seen any phones here and my cell phone has stopped working because of no signal down here. Maybe I should use my powers as a lady to seduces a soldier to bring me to the command centre or whatever that can give me some news. Time for bed even that the missing sun light, makes me have a hard time falling asleep or know when to walk up.

Good night diary

Day 157

Dear diary

Well we managed to get on the train and get to the bunker. I wonder how long we have to stay down here before they let us out again. The soldiers talks about months as they have no idea about what to do against those aliens and we are running out of options other than nukes and whatever of strong and deadly weapons. There has been no news of any country using them yet but you never know what sick fucks rule the countries around the world who feels like they need to use them or worse what if the aliens get their hands on them. They can be smarter than us and use them ourselves, maybe that is why we have not attempted to use them yet or maybe the aliens is shielded inside the spaceships. Anyway the train ride and my pregnancy took my energy so will get some sleep now while we at least feel safe.

Good night diary

Day 151

Dear diary

My house is completely destroyed, luckily I was out getting cans of food, now I am standing on our train station waited to get transported to some old military bunker we used doing second world war. Not sure if it is any good but I guess it is better than nothing. My mom is standing beside me and talks about how her mother used to the her about the second world war and how everything was dark and full of death. She has lost her focus as she does not even care that I am writing in my diary and the stories from her mouth is very confusing and hard to believe is true but at least I know she is alive which is more than I can say about Niklas. That reminds me I managed to get my turquoise stone from my father with me before leaving so I am not losing my only memory from him if my mother ends up being nuts by all the attacks and aliens around us. Finally the train is here so let us see if there is any room for us or the army will take all the room. No matter what I do not think I get more time to write. Niklas please return from the war soon, so we can be a happy family with the little new one on the way.

Good night diary

Day 149

Dear diary

Niklas, where are you? I miss you, I need you and please be alive. The soldiers around here says that they are ready for any attack the aliens can bring if they return. All the news talks about that the aliens attacked and even it has costed lives then we have won every major battle so far. I wonder why we have not been sent to a military camp or something as I do not feel safe here even that soldier are walking the streets while tanks drives around like normal cars. The base still cannot give me any news on Niklas so when will I am getting awake by two men in uniform telling me his is death. My mom says I should just worry about getting enough food for the baby in case the aliens attacks again. It feels like she changed while blaming me. Shit there the reddish light was again, fuck an explosion not far away guess I need to run to the basement now before I get caught up here doing the attack. Good thing I have placed a madness and some food in my basement room just to be sure.

Good night diary and I hope to be alive tomorrow.

Day 139

Dear diary

Please help me, if I do not get though this please tell my husband Niklas that I love him and that he was going to be a great father. I miss my mother and wish she could be here too but with the tanks shooting. I cannot go anywhere and I only feel safe here in the basement. Finally the noise stopped, am I safe now? I hear people screaming so is that a good sign as I can only see smoke outside. I am writing as fast as I can incase this is my last words then I am glad I got to experience life. Two plans just flew over my house, so close that the smoke disappeared and I can see soldiers entering broken buildings so I am glad to be alive. God, please help me to know what Niklas is doing this moment and why he has not call yet. I see, only dead humans but no sign of the so-called aliens, I am going back to my apartment now and call my mom to hear if she is good. The sign of normal red blood worries me as if only humans fell doing this attack and no aliens is part of the fallen, then it is for sure an uneven war. I wonder who will be the hero who saves us. Will write more if more happens today.

See you soon, diary.