Day 389

Dear diary

Today I got to see the aliens again, they tried to attack the camp but only minor injuries happened
to our men, according to the soldier I was taking care of. I love talking to the men about how they
have experience the war so far as it reminds me of the stories Niklas told me. I am not sure if the
soldier enjoyed my company as I am not the best with a needle when it is flesh I am trying to help
heal. Good thing I learned a bit at kindergarten or it would have been even more painful for the
soldier. My father talks the rock and that I maybe get to use it next time we are going to be attack.
I didn’t like the way he talked about it as he sounded almost like he enjoyed the possibility of
death that an attack would might bring even it didn’t do today. I asked my father if he maybe
could arrange something so I could burry my past a bit as my last days of sleep have been full of
nightmares about Niklas, my little boy and my mother blaming me for their deaths. The medic who
helped me giving birth to my still born told me it was good to write about it even it was a still born.
She even suggested that I should figure out a name for him and that way make peace with the
past that way. I will use my remaining energy of the evening to think of a name for him.

Goodnight

Day 383

Dear diary

Time flies, I cannot believe I have been in a real army camp for 5 days now. I am still annoyed on
my father but the life here is so much more than him and the fake camp I was at before. We have
started talking about the car crash, which killed him. He told me that he death was so real
because another man had died to make it seem so real. I don’t understand how he could just
leave us behind and kill a man to be alive and death on the same time. Guess I learn more of it
while we are together here. I am so glad that the army allows women in it as it would have been
weird like in the fake camp to just be alone. A female medic has helped me given birth to my
death child. I know I sounds like it was nothing but it really helped a woman was by my side doing
it. I hope I can revenge my child, my husband and my mother in some way soon. My eyes is full of
tears now so guess I will sign off for today.

Goodnight