Day 619

Dear diary

I am getting tired of aliens, rocks and everything in between as today we was of course attacked by the aliens just as my nightmares and the shooting stars almost predicted. I wonder if the aliens can feel that I can control the rocks and that is why they keeps attack us after my nightmare. I want to walk away from it all to keep Niklas safe but guess would only make things worse for him. I know it is a bit harsh to say that another army, who helped us beat the aliens in the fight today, is a bad thing but the leaders of the army just took control over Niklas and his soldiers like they had been under them the entire time and made the regular soldiers once more. That means starting tomorrow, Niklas will get sent out in the field again and because I am a woman I cannot join him because he made me promise to keep the rocks a secret untill we knew more about the army and its leaders. I guess I will go to Niklas tent and spend the night so he knows I love him and will always be there for him. I know I told you a few days back that he hurt me once doing his sleep and yes he did but it was only because I entered his tent while he was having his nightmares. I hope if I sleep next to him, things will be better.

Goodnight

Day 617

Dear diary

I wonder if my mind is connect to the rocks in more than one way as recently when I have been having nightmare shooting stars and maybe even meteorites is appearing on the sky like tonight. I hope that things goes well for us and that the aliens stay away this time. I do not want to see more death but at least I know how to use the rock now and if I ever get captures by aliens or humans I will fight my way out or die trying. I lost enough that way and yeah I know only Dan so far but that is far enough even that I got Niklas back. It is good to be with him again and I can feel he enjoys it as well even that he is busy being a leader. He sounds like a good leader and I am happy he is non longer sent out on missions like he was before. He told me that his leaders died under an alien attack and afterwards people just started to come to him for answer and he felt that he had to become the leader for them. I know that the dead of men and his former leaders as sometimes he is waking up with fire in his eyes and one time he even took a hard grasp around my throat. Of course it was scary when it happened, I even wept a bit which killed the fire in his eyes as soon they hit his hand. I still have a mark from it and he has one inside his soul as he cannot make himself kiss me before telling how sorry he is. I do not blame him for it, I just hope I can help him beat his demons some day like he will beat the real ones.

Goodnight