Day 647

Dear diary

Today we was almost killed by a young woman around my age. I am not sure if she did by accident or really wanted to harm us but later when she tried again nothing happened. Sorry got interested in the death event that I completely forgot to tell you what happened. Well I am out on search with Niklas and it was early in the morning after a shooting star show yesterday and we was expecting aliens to attack us so we was all ready for a fight or so we though. Suddenly a bean like the one I can shoot from my rock divide our group in two without luckily killing anyone but before the soldiers had a change to fire back at crying was heard. We had found a woman who had been able to fire the rock and killing an alien in the progress. She was not sure how she did it but we are traveling home to base where I am sure the leaders will be trilled and force me to train her how to use the rocks or at least try. The woman has forgotten her name, so we decide to call her Anika until she either remembers or it will stick. I need to take care of her now as she has been hurt a bit while being on her own so have to go now.

Goodnight

Day 643

Dear diary

Today we was attacked by aliens and because there were so many of them I had to use the rocks to defend myself and some soldiers. Even I have still not decide to help other learn the powers it gave me some new perks or what to call them. I have gotten permission to join Niklas’s team and search for more rocks while being with him all the time instead of being at the camp with no one talk to. That is the best news I have since we have been under new management. Niklas is happy too even that some of his guys found it a bit weird to have a woman on the team when they are all men but Niklas made them agree. Maybe I can find more clues about my father place while out there as so far there have not been shooting stars for a while so I doubt we find any new rocks but I will never say never. As long I am with Niklas I do not care what the world bring against us plus his mood also changed for the better so guess he was just as tired of the bosses as me. I have been meaning to talk to Niklas about maybe try again with a baby but feels like the war against the aliens is making raising one quite hard so, so far I have decide to keep it in my head and just focus on other things. I hope my father is alive as I want him to be a grandfather.

Goodnight

Day 641

Dear diary

Niklas and I had a talk today, his bosses wants me to learn them about how to use the rocks so we can use them against the aliens. Niklas wanted me to teach them while I was like no way, I have seen enough horror of what people can do with our own weapons and will so why should I teach them so magic rocks to make their job far more easy. Niklas says it might help me getting new friends, I guess I rather be friend less. Niklas also seemed harsh as he tried to almost force me to do it, I wonder if we even are in love anymore. I also wonder what Dan would have done if some new bosses has told him to teach them how to use the rocks. I am sure that Dan would have understood my No instead of turning harsh against me. Maybe my mood is better tomorrow so who knows if I changes my mind. Will sleep now just to end this stupid day.

Goodnight

Day 631

Dear diary

Why does the world has to be so hard against me all the time. I am tried that Niklas is no longer a leader and is sent out on missions like he is some dog. I am not saying that him being a dog would be fine but maybe it would be a bit better if I had some friends here as no one have time for a woman like me, even I sure get some eyes from the guys from time to time. The best thing which could happen is if they found the new base of my father so I could at least be with him while Niklas was out or give me my time back with Dan, why did he has to dieā€¦ I know why and it was because I knew how to use the rocks and not a regular young woman. I wonder if people would have more mood to be my friend if I did not have the rock powers. Guess I am back at blaming my father for all the things once more. Sorry father. That reminds me I have for some reason only call my father for father this entire diary so guess it is time to reveal his name. Brian Lorenzen is his name, it is not big deal. ANother things that annoyed me is that even that Niklas keep finding survivors they all avoid me like someone who has not shower for a month or so. No one gives a damm about me at the moment, except Niklas who has no time for me.

Goodnight