Dear reckoning news 10/12

Hello Anyone

Today I finish Dear reckoning and as I am writing this they are reviewing my book at the Apple books and I hope it get out soon but if you cannot wait then it is out as PDF on the Dear book series pages. I hope you will enjoy it just as much I did writing it. When I started writing I never expect to be self publishing my books other places than on a website like this and now I have done 2 in less than a year. It has been a great journey and I feel great about it. I can tell you know that unless magic happens then I have no sequels planned.

See you soon, thanks for following and have a nice day.

Day 733

Dear diary

Today has been a day like any other, I wonder if me and Niklas ever gets over that I was with Dan for a while that I thought Niklas was dead. I am really sorry for all of this and I promise I will be good until I know the true dead next time. Of course I do not want him to disappear or die again so help me god, let me get back with Niklas soon. We have still not… wait someone is screaming, I will write later…

I want to escape but it is too late for me so guess I will gather my last strength. Niklas has been replaced by an alien which was why has been so cold to me. It hurts when I am writing by have to continue. The aliens has attacked us from inside, my father is dead and I do not know to write this as I do not understand it but blood is running from my belly so cannot think straight anymore but the rocks was fake. The beams they made was somehow the aliens and it was just a way for them to make me arrive in important places with important people and all. I have doomed the human race but I am dying now so I could not even save myself as Niklas was an alien all along.
Goodbye world, if there is not life after this then thanks for the time I had… and God please save..

Goodnight

Day 729

Dear diary

Today will be the last time I will ever mention Dan as I want to show Niklas that I am 100% focused on us even he is acting more and more wierd by the day and he even asked the leaders to go on a mission tonight and left me alone here. Good thing I still have my father to talk or would be like back when I had no one when Niklas was sent on mission. I wonder what Anika would have told me if she was here. I miss having a female friend so If Niklas is not back in base tomorrow I will start talking to random girls and women untill someone wants to talk to me or at least tell what I have to do, to make them talking. If nothing works I will ask the leaders to send me on another rock hunt as I think I need some air. Niklas will be in my heart untill he either starts showing feelings for other women or something like that. It is so annoying to think this would have been soon our 1 year of marriage and instead of that we are pissed at each other and acting strange while an alien vs human war is going on. If I knew my life would be like this back when I started my first diary I would have not fallen for Dan and maybe not become pregnant with child. But I guess that is just how life is. So dear God please make my life better soon.

Goodnight

Day 719

Dear diary

It is more than 2 weeks ago since I called Niklas for Dan and we have finally talked a bit about and he is still angry about it and even that I told him it was not the soldier Dan in his group, he almost killed him. I never knew that Niklas was like this and even I still love him, I am also a bit scared of him now because I did not want anyone to get hurt by my actions. I am sorry that I am bad but I still do not know how I was supposed to know he was alive. If Niklas had given me any sign I would have no felt so alone which made the things happen. I am not sure if it is my fear which is talking now but sometimes I wish Dan was still here instead so things could have continued. My father says that some people is having a hard time cheating but how can he call it cheating when I did not know he was alive. I guess will go to sleep before my head gets too full of sad thoughts so tears will ruin my sleep.

Goodnight

Day 709

Dear diary

Niklas is still cold as ice even after explaining how sorry I am to him as it just flew out of my mouth. In case you do not remember then I by mistake called Niklas for Dan the other day and of course he wanted to know who it was and he got pretty annoyed on me plus one of his soldier coworkers as he thought that was the Dan I talked about. I told him the true story about how that he had disappeared and that I had lost our child. The only kindness I was getting was from my father and when he sent me away to the research centre, I had none plus how was I suppose to know he was alive when he had left me. Since then Niklas has been given me the coldest shoulder I have ever had in my entire life. My father say it will go over soon and it is just the war that is making him act weird. I am not so sure as things was going well between us and after the armies has joined forces we are even having time for each other. I do not know what to do to make things work out between us so for now I will just try to search for my rocks and people who can use them so we can win this war for good as those aliens is really starting to annoy me.

Goodnight

Day 701

Dear diary

We are saved or something. Niklas found my father’s base and now we are having two armies to be able to fight against the aliens so now I can relax again. I will still try to learn others how to use the rocks so we can defend even better against the aliens but I can also spend some time with my father. We have not been able to talk about what happened at the research centre yet but I am sure he has a pretty good explanation as he seem really sad and happy to see me. I guess I can almost forgive any reason as long he did not send me to die but why would he do that to his own daughter. Tears is feeling my eyes when I think of those who has died so far Anika who never remembered her real name, Dan who love me and my mother while we tried to escape. I cannot make myself write more today except for may they rest in peace with the rest of the souls who has given their lives for a better tomorrow.

Goodnight

Day 691

Dear diary

We are back at square one in more than one sense, the aliens is taking us out one by one and things are looking really dark now. Before I tell you why then I can say no shooting stars tonight so I can use a bit of my energy to explain you what have happen. First of all I think we are down to about half of the men we were when we was found by the army, they are not all dead but many are and those who are not are having really bad injuries. Second I am now the only one able to use the rocks again as Anika was killed today and even that we tried to revive her, her life was out of our hands. I hope I can help defend us now as I really want to have a baby some day in a peaceful world. I have still not mentions the thoughts for Niklas but I hope he will too, once this is over. I do not know what else to say other than I will keep fighting and writing this diary until my last breath, even if I have to write with my own blood.

Goodnight

Day 683

Dear diary

Guess the aliens are no longer holding back as they has been attacking our base again, good thing that Anika was ready for the fight as well because it really took a lot of my energy to use the rocks this time. I can see shooting stars are on the sky tonight so I guess I better get some sleep while I can or thing looks pretty bad for us. Niklas has not found my father yet but he will continue searching with fewer men this time as we need them to defend until we find the army as we could really use some help

Goodnight

Day 677

Dear diary

Guess you can always do a trade to get your will, even in this world or rather what is left of it. Until now only researchers has been trying to help the young woman Anika with the rocks and its power because I felt I needed some space from the rocks and I also wanted more time with Niklas the few hours or days he are home from mission. Now I am helping them because I know how to use them or rather I think I do as so far it has not made Anika able to use them but I sure we are getting there soon. In return the leaders has allowed Nikas to search for the base of my father and I know what you are think, no many days ago you told it was found burning and yes it was but after getting permission to search the left overs I found clues about that the base destruction was a cover up and now Niklas has been ordered out to find the base so we can all be together against the aliens. Guess I have not been so happy for the human race in a long time. I am smiling as I am writing all of this even I am still a bit annoyed on my father for leaving me to died after the alien attack but now I think they had their own issues to deal with and that he would have been there for me if they had the chance to save me. I want to sleep with peace in my heart beside I know I will get awaken soon again because the bosses wants the power of the rocks soon and guess sleep is for the weak.

Goodnight

Day 673

Dear diary

Dear God, please let my father and most of his friends and other important figures be alive as I know from Niklas that the aliens has been in your camp and destroyed it. The attack was so bad that there was still fires all over the place and even that Niklas do not know my father, he calmed that he did not find any bodies which was not burned to unrecognizable so there was nothing for me to see. I wish that Niklas had allowed me to show the power of the rocks before so I could help maybe have helped my father is his fight. I am not blaming Niklas even my wish, I blame myself for having the power to begin with or the stupid aliens which arrived here in the first place. I talked about that to some of the men who was researching the rocks and not one of the had a single idea about why the aliens had landed here on earth of all places as so far they knew they had only be trying to destroy us and not change the planet to their environment or dig after gold or something. I hope my father is not blaming me for not being there when he needed me but why would he as he was not there when I needed him. Guess my mind cannot find out if it is a good day even that I do not know if my father is dead or alive. Before my mind is getting completely out of this world I will try to sleep

Goodnight

Day 661

Dear diary

The shooting stars a few weeks back did not bring an attack on our base but I was still a bit worried when some of Niklas’s team arrived early at home with blood on their faces and cloches. A few of them had died but Niklas was not one of them, I know I am sounding cold but saying that I am happy he is still alive because how could I live in this world if I had no one who care of me. I bet you are think why are you not just throwing yourself at people but it is hard for me, ok. Maybe if Niklas dies again I might find another like Dan, who knows. I have still not given up in find my father as I wonder what happen to him and the others. I do not mind to find out his is dead as long as I get some papers explaining why he did not find me in the first place after the alien attack. Of other news my belly is acting wierd, maybe I am soon ready to try become a mother again soon but so far Niklas has either been uninterested or too busy. Btw I do care for strangers and I hope that no one was hurt or killed by the latest shower. Anika still do not remember her name which is kinda weird given that her injuries did not seem that bad but she managed to fire the rocks once more before starting to scream of pain which ended up making her faint. She is back up already, but I think we have already learned more together than while they was searching me on their own. I guess we need to learn how to control the beams without becoming tried or have pains. Guess I have rambled enough about things now so will sleep now.

Goodnight

Day 659

Dear diary

I forgot to write you my dear diary but need to get my head empty as it is full of nightmares of Niklas killing Dan, Dan trying to kill me and aliens running around killing all people like a soft gun war. I wish the stars could help me calm down but guess of all the time I have been focused on the sky this one has been the worst as it is so full of stars that I hope some of them is at least old satellites or other space things falling to the earth as if not then we are in deep shit. I wish Niklas was here but he had to be out on mission tonight, I will blame my life choices if he does not return. Wow it is 3am, so I guess I need to go to bed again now or I will have a hard time teaching Anika anything, before I let the pen go I want to say I wonder what her real name is, maybe Eve like the first female human according to Cristian believes.

Goodnight

Day 653

Dear diary

It is good to that we found Anika as first of all we are learning more about the rocks by the day with her around. I know Dan tried his best as well but he did not give us much new knowledge. Anika says it hurt a bit in her chest when firing but not so bad and she can easily turn it off. Another good thing is that I have more time for Niklas even he is busy but today we at least had the chance to share a meal instead of almost just saying good morning or good night. I wonder if we will have the chemistry we had before the aliens and before he left me last time. I tried to small talk doing the meal we shared but it quickly turned a bit shower as he was annoyed on himself for not being there to protect the baby even that he knows in died inside me and not by something outside. The last good thing about Anika is that I do not need to go rock hunting every day as some times she just go while I stay back and search for more clues about them plus I am not the only one getting tested all the time which relaxes my body as well. The leaders talk about maybe make me the leader of the small research team as they feel like I am the most knowledgeable on the subject, not sure if that is true or not. Anika feels clever too so maybe I will just that we share the job if the leaders decide I shall be the one. Now I will rest as I have to get up early tomorrow.

Goodnight