Day 613

Dear diary

It feels good to be back with Niklas again even I am not sure how I will ever be able to tell him about Dan. I miss my father but the reasons from Niklas about why we have not returned there yet has been good so far and besides Niklas is the only human except Dan who has cared for me since my father sent me away to the research centre. I know it was his boss but still we still have not been in contact since the alien attack on the centre so how can he say he loves me when he cannot even make the army go looking for me when I am a mighty weapon against the aliens. I still wonder if I would have found Niklas if Dan had not died the day I held myself from using the rocks powers even that tears was jumping out of my eyes like shots from a machine gun. I am glad that they was stupid enough to take us to our old camp so I could gather the rocks so they could not find it there. I am still a bit shaky every time a guard past my tent as it reminds me of being in the case plus I keep waking up at night by my nightmares which has grown really bad since I was saved, I wish there was a doctor here who could give me some sleeping pills or something. I will try to sleep now.

Goodnight

Day 607

Dear diary

You would not believe how good it feels to be back in Niklas arms even that he is not giving me the only thing I want. I want to go back to my father’s camp and so we all three can be reunited even my father might ask what happened to Dan. I have not told Niklas about Dan yet as I worry my old flame for Niklas will get suffocated by his jealously as he was very jealous back in the days before the war and except for some aliens that showed me that humans cannot work together then what has changed. I know he was gone and that he has not told me what happened that day yet but I am sure that whatever the reason was then he had a very good reason or reasons to leave me behind. Maybe he thought he would save our baby. My eyes is getting wet just by the thought of it even I have done my best to keep my mind away from the subject. But to handle my sorrow I have decide to name him Randon which means wolf-shield as I feel he would have protected his mother against the aliens if he had to. I wish I could revive him, Dan and my mother so we all could be a happy family even Dan would not have been in my life if Niklas had not disappeared. I am not sure what to call him if he was a girl but it does not matter as it is dead.By the way I am glad to have you diary as it helps me get some of my heavy throughs out of my head.

Goodnight

Day 601

Dear diary

It feels funny how your life can go from being the worst thing every happening to the best thing every happening. I am still sad that Dan is dead but the camp the soldiers took me and the remaining women was the hidden pace of Niklas or whatever to call it. My eyes are full of tears for Dan and I am happy in my heart that Niklas lives even with a few injuries here and there. I cannot wait for him to tell me what has happen in his life doing the time we has been separated and I hope he is not mad for losing my weeding ring to those mercenaries. I do not have time to write more today as I just want to spend time with Niklas now.

Goodnight

Day 599

Dear diary

Stupid rocks why did you not work when I needed you to work so I could have saved Dan from the leader of the mercenaries. But at least I am free now as the rock started to glow and I killed a guard before the places was raided by soldiers. A few women died in the fight for freedom but the mercenaries are all gone from the face of the earth. I wonder if the new soldiers are any good or if they are just our new lords but I overheard them talk about bringing us to their leader Niklas and the way the soldier said the name, really turned a old fire in me that made me believe that the Niklas they was talking about is my old Niklas. I know it is too early to be happy for something but after the loss of Dan and the mercenaries really made my mind and body need some love instead of dead. I asked the soldiers when we was going to the camp with Niklas and they told me that we are 2 days away from there and the plan is going there after a free night of sleep. I am so happy now that the only thing which can ruin my mind is does stupid rocks and shooting stars but even in a clear sky as today I feel like the moonlight is protecting me as not a single meteorite is in sight and I have been watching for the past hour while I tried to write down my dead. I can hear a few ladies moaning gentle in the night, guess they and the soldiers missed some love compared to the horrors which was filling our days here.

Goodnight

Day 593

Dear diary

I do not know where to start today as I am so sad and annoyed on myself that writing this only hurt my heart even more. Guess I just try write it out and deal with the facts afterwards. Deep breath… Dan is death… yes you read that right, he is death and it is my fault as I had every possibility to save him from the mercenaries and does who hired them in the first place. Let me start from the beginning of the day. I was awaken by noise in the camp and before I knew anything my cage was opened and I was forced on a march where we were two soldiers, one of the hires, Dan and me. I thought at first that they were going to force Dan to see me getting you know but instead they force us back to the research centre where we had left the rocks behind. You see, without my knowledge had Dan been talking doing his fever about the rocks and how he were my lover and all while a guard had heard it and decided that it was the best clue about the rocks they had been having since their search started. So we got to the place where we had hidden the rocks and they had forced me to dig for them. When they was done they wanted me to use them but even after what seem like millions of tries and tears running down my cheeks I could not make them work. So what did they do, well they pointed a gun at Dan chest who, thankfully, was too sick to notice what was happen, and just like on movies when the hero cannot do what the evil mastermind wants they shoot him and he died before I could reach him and tell him how much I loved him and that those bastards would get paid for what they had done to him. Now they have the rocks and they have the only person in the world able to use them too. So I wonder how long before they take away my dairy too so I can root in hell.

Goodnight

Day 587

Dear diary

Dan is sick and even that he is getting some of my food he is getting low on energy once more, and I am sad that I cannot do more than feeding him the best parts of my meals. I wish I could help him become even better as if he dies then why should I continue living my life as then another love of my life has died. Dan wants me to stop feeding him and focus on my own survival instead of his but I am not going to do that and those mercenaries will feel my waith if anything happens to him and they are a part of it. My mind is out for today and too focusing on every little noise coming from Dan so I will sign off already.

Goodnight