Looking back

Hello world, I am Jesper and I am a journalist from Denmark sitting in a peaceful cafe in Copenhagen, enjoying some coffee while waiting for my guest, miss Angela, to arrive. While we wait for her to arrive, let me tell you a few things about her. First of all, she is blind, but that is not the main reason I have brought her here. I am going to talk to her but she is one of the millions of people, who has escape the former peaceful country Danmian which around 18 months ago were taken over by a tyrant name Draco, which I have learned means dragon in the language Danmainsk which makes sense after all what he has done. I want to talk to Angela about how she watched her country went from one of the most peaceful countries in the world to a country which recently tested their first rocket and who knows how long before they will have nuclear powers as well. Angela has now arrived and let me first express a thanks for allowing me to be the one to do this interview and second of all, why do you want us, Danes, to hear your story? “Thank you, Jesper, I am pleased to be here and to answer your question right away then I am doing it out of one thing only and that is love, and before you ask, no I am not talking about my love for my country as I am sure many others already hav told you about this, no I am talking about my love for Alex who went from being my love of my life, to my enemy and in the end a hero for me and the million of people who has managed to escaped Draco and his forces.” You are very much welcome and I am sorry that I am just a humble journalist with no actual power. “You are wrong, Jesper, the power of the free voice is more powerful than you will ever know and maybe your report and my story will help people understand and give my people a fighting chance against Draco” I notice that your eyes almost gone and that you had a man helping you get seated, is that Alex? “I am sorry, but no… Alex gave his life for me to survive” I am sorry for your loss, do you want anything to drink or eat before you start the story? “No, thanks, maybe afterwards… if you do not have more things on your heart I would like to tell my story, which starts early morning the 1. of January, about 18 1/2 month ago. It was a beautiful morning and I remember waking up smiling as the evening before doing the fireworks at 12am I was being kissed by Alex and seconds before had promised me, he would always be mine, unknown to us however had Draco taken over the power of the country and like with magic spell, Alex was suddenly evil and I was good because of something our parents had done…”

The purple party has begun

Hello Anyone

Long time no see, today I have updated People and Story pages for The purple party as I just finished chapter 1, also known as ‘Looking back’ so enjoy and I hope to bring more to you soon even that next week I will be busy scouting. Anyway it feels good to get some words back in my fingers again after so long.

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News 14/2-2022

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Today I am bringing 2 big news here which is neither something that will be finished today but still they are some new projects.

  1. I will start translating Dear series to danish so those who cannot read it in English will still get a chance to read them. I know it is not a big news since most of you properly do not understand danish in the first place but since I am only able to translate it to that I have decide to do so.
  2. The second news is way more intresting but for me and you as I am hearby annoccing that I am writing a new book named ‘The purple party’ which will be a romantic novel. The story follows a young couple who falls in love on New Years Eve only to have a spoiled by the leader CCC of the country decides he wants to be a dictator. The man AAA is the son of the dictator and the woman BBB is the daughter of the former adversary DDD of him. Will their father’s fight destroy their love or will it live though the many tests and people in their new life. The idea is so new that it is still not filled with names yet but I will keep you update on it all as it happens. I hope you will enjoy it just as much as Dear series. You can find it all here

That was all for now and I cannot wait to start writing again

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Dear reckoning news 10/12

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Today I finish Dear reckoning and as I am writing this they are reviewing my book at the Apple books and I hope it get out soon but if you cannot wait then it is out as PDF on the Dear book series pages. I hope you will enjoy it just as much I did writing it. When I started writing I never expect to be self publishing my books other places than on a website like this and now I have done 2 in less than a year. It has been a great journey and I feel great about it. I can tell you know that unless magic happens then I have no sequels planned.

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Day 733

Dear diary

Today has been a day like any other, I wonder if me and Niklas ever gets over that I was with Dan for a while that I thought Niklas was dead. I am really sorry for all of this and I promise I will be good until I know the true dead next time. Of course I do not want him to disappear or die again so help me god, let me get back with Niklas soon. We have still not… wait someone is screaming, I will write later…

I want to escape but it is too late for me so guess I will gather my last strength. Niklas has been replaced by an alien which was why has been so cold to me. It hurts when I am writing by have to continue. The aliens has attacked us from inside, my father is dead and I do not know to write this as I do not understand it but blood is running from my belly so cannot think straight anymore but the rocks was fake. The beams they made was somehow the aliens and it was just a way for them to make me arrive in important places with important people and all. I have doomed the human race but I am dying now so I could not even save myself as Niklas was an alien all along.
Goodbye world, if there is not life after this then thanks for the time I had… and God please save..

Goodnight

Day 729

Dear diary

Today will be the last time I will ever mention Dan as I want to show Niklas that I am 100% focused on us even he is acting more and more wierd by the day and he even asked the leaders to go on a mission tonight and left me alone here. Good thing I still have my father to talk or would be like back when I had no one when Niklas was sent on mission. I wonder what Anika would have told me if she was here. I miss having a female friend so If Niklas is not back in base tomorrow I will start talking to random girls and women untill someone wants to talk to me or at least tell what I have to do, to make them talking. If nothing works I will ask the leaders to send me on another rock hunt as I think I need some air. Niklas will be in my heart untill he either starts showing feelings for other women or something like that. It is so annoying to think this would have been soon our 1 year of marriage and instead of that we are pissed at each other and acting strange while an alien vs human war is going on. If I knew my life would be like this back when I started my first diary I would have not fallen for Dan and maybe not become pregnant with child. But I guess that is just how life is. So dear God please make my life better soon.

Goodnight

Day 719

Dear diary

It is more than 2 weeks ago since I called Niklas for Dan and we have finally talked a bit about and he is still angry about it and even that I told him it was not the soldier Dan in his group, he almost killed him. I never knew that Niklas was like this and even I still love him, I am also a bit scared of him now because I did not want anyone to get hurt by my actions. I am sorry that I am bad but I still do not know how I was supposed to know he was alive. If Niklas had given me any sign I would have no felt so alone which made the things happen. I am not sure if it is my fear which is talking now but sometimes I wish Dan was still here instead so things could have continued. My father says that some people is having a hard time cheating but how can he call it cheating when I did not know he was alive. I guess will go to sleep before my head gets too full of sad thoughts so tears will ruin my sleep.

Goodnight

Day 709

Dear diary

Niklas is still cold as ice even after explaining how sorry I am to him as it just flew out of my mouth. In case you do not remember then I by mistake called Niklas for Dan the other day and of course he wanted to know who it was and he got pretty annoyed on me plus one of his soldier coworkers as he thought that was the Dan I talked about. I told him the true story about how that he had disappeared and that I had lost our child. The only kindness I was getting was from my father and when he sent me away to the research centre, I had none plus how was I suppose to know he was alive when he had left me. Since then Niklas has been given me the coldest shoulder I have ever had in my entire life. My father say it will go over soon and it is just the war that is making him act weird. I am not so sure as things was going well between us and after the armies has joined forces we are even having time for each other. I do not know what to do to make things work out between us so for now I will just try to search for my rocks and people who can use them so we can win this war for good as those aliens is really starting to annoy me.

Goodnight

Day 701

Dear diary

We are saved or something. Niklas found my father’s base and now we are having two armies to be able to fight against the aliens so now I can relax again. I will still try to learn others how to use the rocks so we can defend even better against the aliens but I can also spend some time with my father. We have not been able to talk about what happened at the research centre yet but I am sure he has a pretty good explanation as he seem really sad and happy to see me. I guess I can almost forgive any reason as long he did not send me to die but why would he do that to his own daughter. Tears is feeling my eyes when I think of those who has died so far Anika who never remembered her real name, Dan who love me and my mother while we tried to escape. I cannot make myself write more today except for may they rest in peace with the rest of the souls who has given their lives for a better tomorrow.

Goodnight

Day 691

Dear diary

We are back at square one in more than one sense, the aliens is taking us out one by one and things are looking really dark now. Before I tell you why then I can say no shooting stars tonight so I can use a bit of my energy to explain you what have happen. First of all I think we are down to about half of the men we were when we was found by the army, they are not all dead but many are and those who are not are having really bad injuries. Second I am now the only one able to use the rocks again as Anika was killed today and even that we tried to revive her, her life was out of our hands. I hope I can help defend us now as I really want to have a baby some day in a peaceful world. I have still not mentions the thoughts for Niklas but I hope he will too, once this is over. I do not know what else to say other than I will keep fighting and writing this diary until my last breath, even if I have to write with my own blood.

Goodnight

Day 683

Dear diary

Guess the aliens are no longer holding back as they has been attacking our base again, good thing that Anika was ready for the fight as well because it really took a lot of my energy to use the rocks this time. I can see shooting stars are on the sky tonight so I guess I better get some sleep while I can or thing looks pretty bad for us. Niklas has not found my father yet but he will continue searching with fewer men this time as we need them to defend until we find the army as we could really use some help

Goodnight

Day 677

Dear diary

Guess you can always do a trade to get your will, even in this world or rather what is left of it. Until now only researchers has been trying to help the young woman Anika with the rocks and its power because I felt I needed some space from the rocks and I also wanted more time with Niklas the few hours or days he are home from mission. Now I am helping them because I know how to use them or rather I think I do as so far it has not made Anika able to use them but I sure we are getting there soon. In return the leaders has allowed Nikas to search for the base of my father and I know what you are think, no many days ago you told it was found burning and yes it was but after getting permission to search the left overs I found clues about that the base destruction was a cover up and now Niklas has been ordered out to find the base so we can all be together against the aliens. Guess I have not been so happy for the human race in a long time. I am smiling as I am writing all of this even I am still a bit annoyed on my father for leaving me to died after the alien attack but now I think they had their own issues to deal with and that he would have been there for me if they had the chance to save me. I want to sleep with peace in my heart beside I know I will get awaken soon again because the bosses wants the power of the rocks soon and guess sleep is for the weak.

Goodnight

Day 673

Dear diary

Dear God, please let my father and most of his friends and other important figures be alive as I know from Niklas that the aliens has been in your camp and destroyed it. The attack was so bad that there was still fires all over the place and even that Niklas do not know my father, he calmed that he did not find any bodies which was not burned to unrecognizable so there was nothing for me to see. I wish that Niklas had allowed me to show the power of the rocks before so I could help maybe have helped my father is his fight. I am not blaming Niklas even my wish, I blame myself for having the power to begin with or the stupid aliens which arrived here in the first place. I talked about that to some of the men who was researching the rocks and not one of the had a single idea about why the aliens had landed here on earth of all places as so far they knew they had only be trying to destroy us and not change the planet to their environment or dig after gold or something. I hope my father is not blaming me for not being there when he needed me but why would he as he was not there when I needed him. Guess my mind cannot find out if it is a good day even that I do not know if my father is dead or alive. Before my mind is getting completely out of this world I will try to sleep

Goodnight

Day 661

Dear diary

The shooting stars a few weeks back did not bring an attack on our base but I was still a bit worried when some of Niklas’s team arrived early at home with blood on their faces and cloches. A few of them had died but Niklas was not one of them, I know I am sounding cold but saying that I am happy he is still alive because how could I live in this world if I had no one who care of me. I bet you are think why are you not just throwing yourself at people but it is hard for me, ok. Maybe if Niklas dies again I might find another like Dan, who knows. I have still not given up in find my father as I wonder what happen to him and the others. I do not mind to find out his is dead as long as I get some papers explaining why he did not find me in the first place after the alien attack. Of other news my belly is acting wierd, maybe I am soon ready to try become a mother again soon but so far Niklas has either been uninterested or too busy. Btw I do care for strangers and I hope that no one was hurt or killed by the latest shower. Anika still do not remember her name which is kinda weird given that her injuries did not seem that bad but she managed to fire the rocks once more before starting to scream of pain which ended up making her faint. She is back up already, but I think we have already learned more together than while they was searching me on their own. I guess we need to learn how to control the beams without becoming tried or have pains. Guess I have rambled enough about things now so will sleep now.

Goodnight

Day 659

Dear diary

I forgot to write you my dear diary but need to get my head empty as it is full of nightmares of Niklas killing Dan, Dan trying to kill me and aliens running around killing all people like a soft gun war. I wish the stars could help me calm down but guess of all the time I have been focused on the sky this one has been the worst as it is so full of stars that I hope some of them is at least old satellites or other space things falling to the earth as if not then we are in deep shit. I wish Niklas was here but he had to be out on mission tonight, I will blame my life choices if he does not return. Wow it is 3am, so I guess I need to go to bed again now or I will have a hard time teaching Anika anything, before I let the pen go I want to say I wonder what her real name is, maybe Eve like the first female human according to Cristian believes.

Goodnight

Day 653

Dear diary

It is good to that we found Anika as first of all we are learning more about the rocks by the day with her around. I know Dan tried his best as well but he did not give us much new knowledge. Anika says it hurt a bit in her chest when firing but not so bad and she can easily turn it off. Another good thing is that I have more time for Niklas even he is busy but today we at least had the chance to share a meal instead of almost just saying good morning or good night. I wonder if we will have the chemistry we had before the aliens and before he left me last time. I tried to small talk doing the meal we shared but it quickly turned a bit shower as he was annoyed on himself for not being there to protect the baby even that he knows in died inside me and not by something outside. The last good thing about Anika is that I do not need to go rock hunting every day as some times she just go while I stay back and search for more clues about them plus I am not the only one getting tested all the time which relaxes my body as well. The leaders talk about maybe make me the leader of the small research team as they feel like I am the most knowledgeable on the subject, not sure if that is true or not. Anika feels clever too so maybe I will just that we share the job if the leaders decide I shall be the one. Now I will rest as I have to get up early tomorrow.

Goodnight

Day 647

Dear diary

Today we was almost killed by a young woman around my age. I am not sure if she did by accident or really wanted to harm us but later when she tried again nothing happened. Sorry got interested in the death event that I completely forgot to tell you what happened. Well I am out on search with Niklas and it was early in the morning after a shooting star show yesterday and we was expecting aliens to attack us so we was all ready for a fight or so we though. Suddenly a bean like the one I can shoot from my rock divide our group in two without luckily killing anyone but before the soldiers had a change to fire back at crying was heard. We had found a woman who had been able to fire the rock and killing an alien in the progress. She was not sure how she did it but we are traveling home to base where I am sure the leaders will be trilled and force me to train her how to use the rocks or at least try. The woman has forgotten her name, so we decide to call her Anika until she either remembers or it will stick. I need to take care of her now as she has been hurt a bit while being on her own so have to go now.

Goodnight

Day 643

Dear diary

Today we was attacked by aliens and because there were so many of them I had to use the rocks to defend myself and some soldiers. Even I have still not decide to help other learn the powers it gave me some new perks or what to call them. I have gotten permission to join Niklas’s team and search for more rocks while being with him all the time instead of being at the camp with no one talk to. That is the best news I have since we have been under new management. Niklas is happy too even that some of his guys found it a bit weird to have a woman on the team when they are all men but Niklas made them agree. Maybe I can find more clues about my father place while out there as so far there have not been shooting stars for a while so I doubt we find any new rocks but I will never say never. As long I am with Niklas I do not care what the world bring against us plus his mood also changed for the better so guess he was just as tired of the bosses as me. I have been meaning to talk to Niklas about maybe try again with a baby but feels like the war against the aliens is making raising one quite hard so, so far I have decide to keep it in my head and just focus on other things. I hope my father is alive as I want him to be a grandfather.

Goodnight

Day 641

Dear diary

Niklas and I had a talk today, his bosses wants me to learn them about how to use the rocks so we can use them against the aliens. Niklas wanted me to teach them while I was like no way, I have seen enough horror of what people can do with our own weapons and will so why should I teach them so magic rocks to make their job far more easy. Niklas says it might help me getting new friends, I guess I rather be friend less. Niklas also seemed harsh as he tried to almost force me to do it, I wonder if we even are in love anymore. I also wonder what Dan would have done if some new bosses has told him to teach them how to use the rocks. I am sure that Dan would have understood my No instead of turning harsh against me. Maybe my mood is better tomorrow so who knows if I changes my mind. Will sleep now just to end this stupid day.

Goodnight

Day 631

Dear diary

Why does the world has to be so hard against me all the time. I am tried that Niklas is no longer a leader and is sent out on missions like he is some dog. I am not saying that him being a dog would be fine but maybe it would be a bit better if I had some friends here as no one have time for a woman like me, even I sure get some eyes from the guys from time to time. The best thing which could happen is if they found the new base of my father so I could at least be with him while Niklas was out or give me my time back with Dan, why did he has to die… I know why and it was because I knew how to use the rocks and not a regular young woman. I wonder if people would have more mood to be my friend if I did not have the rock powers. Guess I am back at blaming my father for all the things once more. Sorry father. That reminds me I have for some reason only call my father for father this entire diary so guess it is time to reveal his name. Brian Lorenzen is his name, it is not big deal. ANother things that annoyed me is that even that Niklas keep finding survivors they all avoid me like someone who has not shower for a month or so. No one gives a damm about me at the moment, except Niklas who has no time for me.

Goodnight