Story of Dear reckoning English version

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Characters

Writer
Name: Liv Lorenzen
Meaning: Liv -> danish for life, Lorenzen -> son of Loren, Loren is old german word for laurel.
Age: 28 years old
Sex: Female

Husband
Name: Niklas Sloth
Meaning: Niklas -> victory of the people, Sloth -> animal
Age: 30 years old
Sex: Male

Father
Name: Brian Lorenzen
Meaning: Brian -> maybe means hill or high, noble, Lorenzen -> son of Loren, Loren is old german word for laurel.
Age: died in car crash but 60 years old if alive
Sex: Male

Scientist
Name: Dan Horn
Meaning: Dan -> comes from the word Dane which is the danish people, Horn -> horn
Age:
32 years old
Sex: Male

Random lady
Name: Anika
Meaning: Coming from the same family as Hannah meaning “favour, grace”
Age: 29 years old
Sex: Female

Day 373

Dear diary
I am so happy today because real men found my buried diary, and they deemed my knowledge and weapon important for humans, so they saved me. They translated my code in the diary and decided it was important to save me and the weapon. The aliens almost allowed me to leave with no death on either side. I guess they also want peace sometimes. I am so happy to be breathing free air, hear real human voices and do anything I please without worrying about who would stop me. The soldiers tell me they are from the northern army, which is a few days away from here, and they are only a scout group. I know that you, my dear diary, have missed me, but I am so tired after being social around real people. I will sleep now and then tell you more soon.
Goodnight

Day 379

Dear diary
The soldiers have finally brought me to the main camp where the northern army is doing their operations. I am glad we made it there alive and even more happy for the surprise which was waiting for me there. My father, Brian, is alive and yeah, I know, I said, I am happy, but I am also sad and annoyed that he left my mom and I plus I wish my mother could have met her once more before she died. I hope he will explain the thoughts that went through his head the day before he had to leave us. He already told me that the reason he left was because he wanted to protect the weapon from falling in the wrong hands and he was not sure the military was the right ones either, which was why he gave it to me. I wonder how he could have known that the aliens would attack years after but guess it is not my headache and now I just need to prove to the army the weapon works but I lied a bit in my diary because I really don’t know how it works. I can sleep in peace that I finally am free of the aliens and that I am not alone in the world anymore.
Goodnight diary

Day 383

Dear diary
Time flies, I cannot believe I have been in a real army camp for 5 days now. I am still annoyed on my father but the life here is so much more than him and the fake camp I was at before. We have started talking about the car crash, which killed him. He told me that he death was so real because another man had died to make it seem so real. I don’t understand how he could just leave us behind and kill a man to be alive and death on the same time. Guess I learn more of it while we are together here. I am so glad that the army allows women in it as it would have been weird like in the fake camp to just be alone. A female medic has helped me given birth to my death child. I know I sounds like it was nothing but it really helped a woman was by my side doing it. I hope I can revenge my child, my husband and my mother in some way soon. My eyes is full of tears now so guess I will sign off for today.
Goodnight

Day 389

Dear diary
Today I got to see the aliens again, they tried to attack the camp but only minor injuries happened to our men, according to the soldier I was taking care of. I love talking to the men about how they have experience the war so far as it reminds me of the stories Niklas told me. I am not sure if the soldier enjoyed my company as I am not the best with a needle when it is flesh I am trying to help heal. Good thing I learned a bit at kindergarten or it would have been even more painful for the soldier. My father talks the rock and that I maybe get to use it next time we are going to be attack. I didn’t like the way he talked about it as he sounded almost like he enjoyed the possibility of death that an attack would might bring even it didn’t do today. I asked my father if he maybe could arrange something so I could burry my past a bit as my last days of sleep have been full of nightmares about Niklas, my little boy and my mother blaming me for their deaths. The medic who helped me giving birth to my still born told me it was good to write about it even it was a still born. She even suggested that I should figure out a name for him and that way make peace with the past that way. I will use my remaining energy of the evening to think of a name for him.
Goodnight

Day 397

Dear diary
I am a little speechless today as last night I did not have any nightmares about Niklas, my father or anything so it was a quiet peaceful night for me and I really enjoyed it until I was awaken by the aliens attacking the base. The shooting practice my father have given me, really helped me feel safe as I helped firing a few rounds at the aliens which was not scary at all until the gun jammed for me. An alien came up close and I am sure I would have been dead now if the rock my father gave me had not glowed in its turquoise color and fired a beam though the brain of the alien. The beam even made the other aliens run in fear when I got stand afterwards. I am glad to be alive and glad to help even that my father was not pleased by me joining the army even that the rock saved me and maybe other soldiers. Guess that is what happens when you are his daughter compared to a normal soldier. Anyway I guess I will sleep now as even last night was nightmare free I am still a bit low on energy after so many days with nightmares in a row
Goodnight

Day 401

Dear diary
Well I guess I found out why my father was angry at me. It was not because that he was scared for me, he was scared what would happen to me now as since I fired the rock he has been at meeting after meeting after meeting with the chef of army and what I have learned they are talking about sending me away to a secret research center to find out what makes the rock tick. I am a bit confused about it all as when the aliens attack the first time he could not wait for them to attack again for them to be destroyed by the rock. I guess he just do not want to lose me again and the battle was clouding his mind. Which reminds me that I have forgot to tell you the last days that the soldier have started treating me like one of their own and I have gotten a few friends that way. They all ask me how I used the rock and if I will use it again next time. I hope the chef and whoever decides thing allows me to stay here as I really find myself at home again even I know it is not a real home plus I cannot let down my new friends. My father and the chef is still arguing about my fate at this hour, I am glad the aliens has not tried to attack us as I am not sure if the chef is focused enough on that possibility.
Goodnight

Day 409

Dear diary
Today’s diary will be a rant and not a good one as it reminded me of the dark nature of humans and sorry for the stupid question but if this diary do not make aware that we are at war with aliens then I will give you a small recap. Shooting stars appeared, rocks appeared, aliens attacked and destroyed my town and I guess most of the world, I lost Niklas and my mother. The aliens and the rocks are still appearing and today we thought another enemy but this one we knew as the enemy was human. Yes I repeat, the new enemy was human and they wanted to destroy us because they had learned from a spy or mole that I was a weapon. They only stopped when they got the eye of me and my rock which sent the running scared but I cannot save the world if humans cannot work together at the aliens. My father is so pissed as the attack came just at chef gave me permission to stay there so now they are back at talking about the future once more.
GoodnightDay 419
Dear diary
I am seating in a truck full of soldier with tears in my eyes as I am writing this. I thought I was going to stay but less than an hour ago while I was showering the chef of the army knocked and told me to be ready to go in a hour. I did as told as he promised me that I would get time to say bye to my father but when the time was gone two soldiers just entered my room, took my stuff before a third came and took me hard. I only luckily managed to grasp my diary so I could write more events down. I told the chef when they pull me out that this was no way of treat their most powerful weapon against the aliens and he looked at me before telling he was worried that my father was the mole who had told the other army about me and that he had to send me away now because he cared for me and wanted no one to know of the operation. I am not saying he is lying but I know my father is no mole. Maybe the chef is the mole.
Goodnight

Day 421

Dear diary
Guess the past days have show me that almost dying is not the worst thing in life as my body is broken from the bad sleep that I have gotten in the truck, my mind is full of unending good byes to my father that I could not get permission to do and my eyes is hurting from the tears. My voice is gone as well for the time I tried to make the soldiers taking me back. But even all that I can still feel all the eyes from the strangers who were looking at me when I arrived at the research centre. I wanted to yell of them but my voice gone as I told you just before and I am not sure that would have helped my case of explaining them I was human like them. At least the bed I have gotten is more soft that what else I have been sleeping on in the past and no one tried to take away my rock even I overheard them saying it might be more important than me. Guess I will rest now so I can return to a more normal life tomorrow or at least I hope so. I hope my father is alive.
Goodnight

Day 431

Dear diary
I have now been at this centre for almost 14 days and people still look at me like I am some kind of alien. I wonder if they are like this against all new people, it makes me miss the base even it was not secure anymore after they noticed the mole who told another army about my power and instead of helping us against the aliens they just opened fire against us like we were aliens. Not even aliens can make humans at peace with other humans. I am so tired after all the stupid testing which failed yet again. The others blame me and try to pressure me by saying we can end the war and trust me I am do not want this war more than the next person but at least I care for all people compared to some people. The day has been so stressful with the tests that I am so sleepy now.
Goodnight

Day 433

Dear diary
Today I am not crying sad tears as I have been doing more or less for the past 14 days but now I am crying happy tears as I was running away from the test area today I ran into Dan. Dan is one of the scientist who is trying to figure out how the aliens can be beaten and how to make new guns for the army even it is a bit hard with the limited resources we have. He seems like a nice guy as he did not look at me like I am a weirdo even he knew I was the woman with the powers over the rock. We had dinner together and we talk about everything like it was the most normal thing in the world. I think he enjoyed spending time with me because he said he would as the leader of this research centre that he would like to work on my project instead of the one at the moment. I hopes he gets it because then we will be able to spend more time together plus I have one less person who looks at me weird when I try to power the rock. Guess this was my first sunshine in all the time I have been here as we are way underground to protect us from the aliens. I hope they have found out that my father is no mole as I am missing to get news from him and the army as he is still the only family I have left but now I might have gotten a friend again.
Goodnight

Day 439

Dear diary
I wonder what I have done with myself if I had not ran into Dan a few days ago as I have finally gotten a friend here at the centre and I am learning so much about the place that I did not know before. First of all we are living in an old war bunker from the cold war area which quickly was restore when the aliens started to attack but because of its placement and old equipment it was made a research centre instead of a command centre. Not sure if I should write this is my diary or not but that one is 500km from here and is built right into to mountains. I guess they are more safe there but we still have a lot of army people here. Of other things another great news is that his boss seemed to like the idea of him working with me so now we are together every day so I do not feel alone anymore even that I still miss my father. Last night I woke up from a nightmare about him being shot but I am sure that something bad would happen to me as well if they had done something against him. At least that is what I am telling myself every time I go to bed. Guess I will ask Dan tomorrow if he can help me get in contact with my father again or at least know his fate if he is dead and gone. I am so happy to have a friend and I wish we had meet the first day. I also asked the boss of Dan if I could get permission to burry my family and Niklas for good so my mind would let the go but he was to worried about the aliens at the moment to even think about my request.
Goodnight

Day 443

Dear diary
I guess I need to learn that some periods of my life will be bad while other periods of my life will be good as today Dan told me that we are going to the ground just him, me and a soldier to burry Niklas or rather a t-shirt I had from him so I can finally burry him for good and yes I know I told I did that last year but the event was taken place around aliens and not humans as now. Another great news is that I have gotten news from my father, he is still alive and they have found out he was not the mole but some other person so he is back at helping the army getting more rocks and learn about its powers. He will not visit me as the research centre I am on is too secret plus his chef found it best to have to places where the rocks and its powers are getting research as the attacks from other humans are making it a bit unsafe only to have it one place in case they have more moles. I guess I will be having a hard time sleeping tonight because of all the good things happening so quickly now. I think I will take a shower and go visit Dan now as I do not want this day to end.
Goodnight

Day 449

Dear diary
Today a few soldiers returned from the surface with injuries and a dead body which reminded me of what we are doing here and why I am here. The man reminded me of Niklas as well so I am crying while writing this but I am determent to work even hard to make the rock work soon again so we can get the upper hand in this battle against the aliens. I also think I have another reason on why I am thinking of Niklas and it is because I am started to have feelings for Dan and I worried something bad will happen to him like with Dan plus I guess I am not completely over the love I had for Dan even his is dead or rather I do not know that for sure but I hope so as I do not want him to suffer in the hands of the aliens. I have told my father this on our daily news sharing and I wonder if he can respect that I love a guy I am working with who is not in the army. I also asked him if he misses mom as I think that might help him understand my feelings for Dan. I hope my mind won’t give me nightmares because of the blood and dead I have seen today but I can say it really make me focus even harder on the tests we are doing and I am also trying to get ideas of what else I can do to help instead of only feeling like I am the guinea pig in this world.
Goodnight

Day 457

Dear diary
Today was my first day not being tested from top to bottom as I got permission to join a group of me, Dan and a few others to go to the surface and see if we could find some rocks as there had been shooting stars sights and we hope some of them gave the rocks we need even that we still have not found out how to use them yet but I guess more rock gives me a bit more free time. The boss of the research centre together with my father’s chef is getting a bit annoyed every time that we still have not fired the rock yet. They even talk about it might be fake or that I am an imposter. I know it works and I am not an imposter beside if I was then I would blame my father as he was the one giving me the rock and he was the one getting blamed from being a mole. All this non-sense makes me having a great idea for how to test it tomorrow but I before I know if it works or not I will keep it a secret from you, my dear diary, but I can tell you another secret I have been unsure if my feelings for Dan was because I missed the feeling of someone who cared for me together with the loss of Niklas or if it was true love and I have decide to ask Dan for his feeling tomorrow, right after the tests.
Goodnight

Day 461

Dear diary
It feels good to feel love once more but still hard to kiss a person who is not Niklas, thankfully is Dan respecting me and is not forcing me to do anything I won’t do. Maybe he has lost a wife too to the aliens, I do not know, have not asked much about his life before the aliens but I know that he has a brother in the army and that his parents died long before the aliens arrived. I am so happy that the bond between us is just growing day by day. Another great news is that I made the rock fire a beam for 10 seconds or so. I am not sure of how I managed to firing so tomorrow we will start having some electrodes on my body while trying again as until now we thought the rock power was something I did like making it warm or similar but now we guess it is a feeling. Now I will go over and have some time with Dan before bedtime.
Goodnight

Day 463

Dear diary
Two days and no new progress of the rock and sounds like we need to work harder finding out what is making the rock work as my father has been injured by attacks and no I am not talking about the aliens but other humans who keep trying to get their hands on the rocks. I guess the enemy did not know that my father was the one who found the first and only rock so far because why else would they try to hurt and kill him unless they know that I am here. Normally I would not think those thought but my father told me that he had to stop sending massages to me for a while on orders from his chef. I guess I can manage now that I have Dan but still depressing to hear about other humans not helping humans but instead make the aliens job more easy. I was so pissed when I read the message about the attack that I think I scared Dan even that he does not seem like one who can be scared easily. I completely forgot to tell you that the electrodes is a funny felling to be wearing and because they need to sure that they are not disrupted I am doing the rock analyse only wearing underwear and thin t-shirt. I am sure that Dan enjoy the sight but we had to talk about that I had lost a baby before I even wanted to get so naked in front of him and the others. Anyway it is getting late.
Goodnight

Day 467

Dear diary
Life is a mix of good and bad things… I am not sure if there is any meanings in them other that get the most out of them like today. I am have been doing the best to figure out the rocks together with Dan and today we got called for a meeting with the high command or what to call them when they are all researchers of some kind or so I think. Anyway the meeting was about that they was worried about being attacked by other humans because of me and the rock. I understand that but they wanted Dan to stay her because he was not an army man and because that they would still keep the rock here, and only sending me back because they felt it would be an amazing way to trick the enemies. I was so mad that I almost threw the chair I was sitting on against them but Dan managed to calm me down and made us come out from the meeting without an escort or what else the so called high command. He tried everything to calm me down when we returned to his sleeping quarters but I feel like they are using me like some weapon and not the human that I am. Yes we are not sleeping together yet even things are going well between us plus I am not sure high command would like a woman and man to sleep together as most people are sleeping different quarters depending on what sex they are. Back to what Dan did to make quiet in the end, he kissed me and now I am flying to the moon and back as he is a great kisser and I did not have a bad taste in my mouth doing it because of Niklas. Now I can sleep in peace.
Goodnight

Day 479

Dear diary
Today we have given up on the testing of me and the rock so we asked Dan’s boss permission to leave the research centre to look for more rocks or rather that is what we are telling them. In reality we are just trying to escape the centre for a while so I can get some fresh air and we can get some time alone. We got permission to go alone as we told them it would perhaps be best to be alone up there instead of sending an entire army up there. Dan have been training to use a rifle and I got permission to talk the rock with me as I pretended that it I needed for the mission to be succeeded. I feel bad for lying to them but they was the ones who talks about sending me back to my father without Dan or the rock. I hope we find something to give them and to make my stay longer as I know I did not want to stay at first but now I will not leave without Dan. Anyway need to pack and sleep as I am sure I need it for tomorrow.
Goodnight

Day 487

Dear diary
Today I will be a short one as my mind is hurt and tired now. I am a begging God to stop me from having nightmares another night. Dan is trying to help me the best he can be even he is not making my mood as great as he did before. I am not sure what is happening inside my head but got some painkillers and some sleeping pills which I took an half hour ago and I am yawning like an alcoholic unable to stop drinking so will cut off now
Goodnight

Day 491

Dear diary
Today was a good day as I have gotten some fresh air on the ground as yes I got permission to join the ground crew to search for some more rocks but Dan was not allowed to join today. As this is the second day in a row on the ground I can say that the fresh air really has helped my mind as I did not have any nightmares last night. The search for rocks also went well even we did not find anyone but at least we did not get attacked by the aliens or Rockys that I leaned that the other researchers call them because their arrival in shooting stars also known as meteorite and their rock looking skin when they do not look human. We did not get attacked by other humans as well. Someone is calling my name now so I will take a break to find it what is happening then I plan to be back here. I know you are just a diary but without Dan or my father then you are almost my only friend so it feels weird to just leave you.
I am back now and I just watched 30-50 shooting stars in different colors and I need to hurry packing as we are trying to reach the research centre without getting notice as who knows where the aliens landed.
Goodnight

Day 499

Dear diary
I am not in mood to write today but guess my mood will get better if I do so here goes nothing. The reason I am down today is that the chef of my father and the boss of Dan has decide that I will get sent back to the camp because they fear that humans will attack us because they have me and the research centre is not an army so they cannot protect us and the army is busy being an army so the only way to save me and the rest of research centre is to send me back to the army. I hope they can figure out how to use the rocks I found doing the past 4 ground expeditions. If you think I am done the bad things then I am not as my father was hurt doing the last attack from the Rockys, he will live so of course I want to be with him to help him get back to his best but that means I will have to leave Dan as for some reason his boss won’t allow him to leave even that his is mainly researching me and not the stupid rocks. I wish those rocks and Rockys had stayed in space and leaved our tiny earth alone. But then again I would not have meet Dan if they had not arrived and not sure if I just miss human touch or if it is true but in some ways he is better than Niklas. I wish the bosses would allow me to decide my own life for a change.
Goodnight

Day 503

Dear diary
If I live thought this then I will never complain about my life again. My hands is still shaking and I do not know what to do, but at least I am alive and so is Dan plus a lot of the researchers. Sorry my mind is just as shaking as my hands plus my belly hurts leave not much focus for the diary today. We was attacked by aliens, and I have no clue how they found us but they did and they hurt us bad. I managed to fight off a few of them with my rock power which for some reason worked, maybe it only works when the user is under pressure like rocks which makes sense if you look at the aliens. Dan is calling for me and because I was a kindergarten teacher before the world was turned upside down and they need my skills in health care.
Goodnight

Day 509

Dear diary
Today the aliens attacked again and we have not heard for the army. We are talking about getting help from them but most of the survivors they are either scared, don’t know where the army is or both. There are still meetings about it and the only reason I am able to write in my diary right now is that I am taking care of the injured people who is sleeping at the moment. I do not know what the future brings but I hope we are soon together with the army. I wonder why they are not here yet as it is now the evening on the six day since the first attack. I hope we get help soon. I have to help so no more writing today
Goodnight

Day 521

Dear diary
Today I have good and bad news. The good news is that Dan has learned how to use the rock like me so now we are two who can use the rocks so now we are the defenders against the aliens but since we are humans we cannot stay awake 100% and I think the aliens knows this as they are trying to attack us when we are asleep. So we are slowly losing more and more people even that we have decide to make a bass in the old research centre. They are working hard to connect to the army as we still have not seen or heard from them. I wonder why my father is not worried for me as at least he knows he should have been heard form me by now or maybe even have seen me if the bosses was talking about sending me back to the base. That was the bad news. I also wonder how they get reach us when we are using every gun to defend the few openings but guess I need to focus on sleeping now instead of that.
Goodnight

Day 523

Dear diary
I do not want to live anymore and I do not want to write much today as we had a major attack yesterday. The aliens came and took the lives of the remain people that me and Dan tried to protect. The last person who was here alive other than us has just taken her last breath so I am writing this with tears in my eyes and many more who has already run down my checks with mixed feelings of lost hope and anger on the army not coming to help us. If I get out of this alive I am going to blame my father for everything as he knew at least that I was here.
Goodnight

Day 541

Dear diary
I do not know where to begin as it has been 14 crazy days and I am not sure what I can or cannot write in this diary as Dan and I have been captured by soldiers which I guess answers your question of how it happened. In case you are not the best at reading between the lines then we watched some soldiers arrive at our centre 14 days ago and because we had not seen any soldiers for a long time we expected it was the army which had finally learned about our fate but of course it was not them but mercenaries who had been hired by another country to find rocks and people who can use them. Luckily Dan and I cannot find out how to use them but they still keep us captured for some reason. Guess it is better than being alone against the aliens. They have been feeding me but because the person they search for is a woman Dan has not been giving nearly enough but they have been so kind to give me my diary back so I can continue the story. I am not sure they understand my language or writing.
Goodnight

Day 547

Dear diary
I wonder who the mercenaries is looking for as they keep bring more and more woman to the camp and they look like similar to me. I also wonder where they keep finding these woman as even we was many woman in the research centre they are all dead now, only me and Dan survived. Speaking of surviving then Dan is getting less and less food because of the growth in numbers of women that the mercenaries has to feed even that they seem like they have having plenty of resources. It makes me wish that we was able to use the rocks to get out of here or at least bring more food for Dan. I know that you are wondering why we are not but you know we do not have any powers over them and we did not have any in the first place after we learned the soldiers was not our soldiers. I give Dan some of my food doing the night as that has not gone done even with the extra women. I do it at night because I do not want them to think we are more than friends as after all Dan is just a man. On the positive side then we have not been attacked by the aliens since we got to getting with the mercenaries even they are not in our team.
Goodnight

Day 557

Dear diary
I wish I could write more but guess once life get boring when you are locked up in a case with no chance of getting out and that the only thing which are changing is the number of woman and the amount of food Dan is getting. I overheard the two guards talking about getting paid and one of them could not wait for the money to arrive so he could use the money even that the aliens made it a bit hard to use them one day. He hoped that the payers have a great idea to make guns and things like that out of the rocks. Hang in there Dan, I will try to get us out soon
Goodnight

Day 563

Dear diary
Today I am writing with tears in my eyes over today events. A researcher from the research centre was somehow alive and was found by the mercenaries. Even from a distance I could see in her eyes that she recognized me and that if things had gone differently she would maybe have revealed the secret about me and maybe Dan too depending on how much she knew as the days after the main attack on the centre is a bit blurry for me. Not sure why, maybe the amount of food is getting to low as I am still sharing my food with Dan. Anyway the woman tried to escape the mercenaries and guess they was in a bit bad mood as instead of chasing her again they just her down like an animal doing hunt before yelling to us in cases that if some one tries to run, they will get shot and not recaptured. It made me want to escape even more, if only we could get to the rocks back at the camp we would be free. Dan managed to stop me for tonight so guess I will just seat her blame the human world for not helping each other when needed instead of still forming forces against each other. I wish I had been more than a kindergarten teacher in my now old life so I could have helped those in need and maybe have given us a better chance against the aliens
Goodnight

Day 569

Dear diary
Every heard of the expression “the enemy of my enemy is my friend”? No, well it is an ancient proverb which suggests that two groups can or should work together against a common enemy. I am wondering if that will happen soon as right now the sky is full of a beautiful meteor shower and the way the mercenaries is reacting then I do not think they know what it means. I really hope they do not as then we might have a chance to escape when the aliens attacks if the mess they make is big enough. Of course I know that it also leaves a chance for us to die in the fight but guess it does not matter anymore. In case you are wondering why I am not making any freinds with the other women here then it is because for some reason our cases are place in groups of when we was caught so only me and Dan is close to each other and then I would say there is 10 metres or so to the next group of case and we have no chance to talk to each other because of the guards so I am all alone in the world with Dan.
Goodnight

Day 571

Dear diary
I am sorry that my heart is full of joy but today the aliens came and attacked the came as I expected would happen after the beautiful meteor shower 2 nights ago. It seem like the mercenaries was not ready for the aliens as I guess 5 of them died including the guard at Dan and I’s cages. I would have tried to escape if I was alone but the strength of Dan is pretty low at the moment, I think he might be sick, so I decided to stay behind with him. I hope that the next time we get a chance to run, Dan is better and everything else works out. Maybe it will happen sooner than later as I heard a few of the mercenaries talk about how they wanted twice the pay from those who hired them without talking about who hired them. The reason I am sorry that my heart is full of joy is because some of the women in other cases was killed doing the attack and even that I am bit annoyed on my fellow humans at the moment then I did not want innocent people to die but at least that might help on the amount of food we get as less mouths to feed. If Dan still not get more food than he has been getting so far I will start give him even more of mine as if he dies I have no reason to live as I worry my father is capture in another camp or worse dead as why else has he not found me yet. I am tired of people with power as they do not care of normal people. Anyway guess I will go to bed before my mood ruins my sleep.
Goodnight

Day 577

Dear diary
This morning I woke up to a loud noise and I hoped it was the aliens attacking again, giving us another chance to escape as Dan is getting better by the day we are here as the amount of food is helping battling whatever sickness he had. Anyway the noise was instead 3 helicopters full of new mercenaries plus their hires who quickly have started to check out the women in more than one way. Yes I can hear them scream in pain when the men do unspeakable things to them and the guns shots that silence them. I wish I had the rock or a gun so I could kill some of them. Dan tell me to clam down because there is nothing I can do about it but my mind is full of crazy thoughts and I wish I could end it all soon, good thing there are plenty of women in the camp so there are a small risk that they get to me anytime soon. I wish I could fly the helicopter and take Dan with me, but I can’t plus I have no clue about how they have avoided getting shot down by the aliens space ships. I wonder if they have a deal with them too. Of good news then Dan is more or less back to his formers self so I can get a bit more of my dinner again.
Goodnight

Day 587

Dear diary
Dan is sick and even that he is getting some of my food he is getting low on energy once more, and I am sad that I cannot do more than feeding him the best parts of my meals. I wish I could help him become even better as if he dies then why should I continue living my life as then another love of my life has died. Dan wants me to stop feeding him and focus on my own survival instead of his but I am not going to do that and those mercenaries will feel my waith if anything happens to him and they are a part of it. My mind is out for today and too focusing on every little noise coming from Dan so I will sign off already.
Goodnight

Day 593

Dear diary
I do not know where to start today as I am so sad and annoyed on myself that writing this only hurt my heart even more. Guess I just try write it out and deal with the facts afterwards. Deep breath… Dan is death… yes you read that right, he is death and it is my fault as I had every possibility to save him from the mercenaries and does who hired them in the first place. Let me start from the beginning of the day. I was awaken by noise in the camp and before I knew anything my cage was opened and I was forced on a march where we were two soldiers, one of the hires, Dan and me. I thought at first that they were going to force Dan to see me getting you know but instead they force us back to the research centre where we had left the rocks behind. You see, without my knowledge had Dan been talking doing his fever about the rocks and how he were my lover and all while a guard had heard it and decided that it was the best clue about the rocks they had been having since their search started. So we got to the place where we had hidden the rocks and they had forced me to dig for them. When they was done they wanted me to use them but even after what seem like millions of tries and tears running down my cheeks I could not make them work. So what did they do, well they pointed a gun at Dan chest who, thankfully, was too sick to notice what was happen, and just like on movies when the hero cannot do what the evil mastermind wants they shoot him and he died before I could reach him and tell him how much I loved him and that those bastards would get paid for what they had done to him. Now they have the rocks and they have the only person in the world able to use them too. So I wonder how long before they take away my dairy too so I can root in hell.
Goodnight

Day 599

Dear diary
Stupid rocks why did you not work when I needed you to work so I could have saved Dan from the leader of the mercenaries. But at least I am free now as the rock started to glow and I killed a guard before the places was raided by soldiers. A few women died in the fight for freedom but the mercenaries are all gone from the face of the earth. I wonder if the new soldiers are any good or if they are just our new lords but I overheard them talk about bringing us to their leader Niklas and the way the soldier said the name, really turned a old fire in me that made me believe that the Niklas they was talking about is my old Niklas. I know it is too early to be happy for something but after the loss of Dan and the mercenaries really made my mind and body need some love instead of dead. I asked the soldiers when we was going to the camp with Niklas and they told me that we are 2 days away from there and the plan is going there after a free night of sleep. I am so happy now that the only thing which can ruin my mind is does stupid rocks and shooting stars but even in a clear sky as today I feel like the moonlight is protecting me as not a single meteorite is in sight and I have been watching for the past hour while I tried to write down my dead. I can hear a few ladies moaning gentle in the night, guess they and the soldiers missed some love compared to the horrors which was filling our days here.
Goodnight

Day 601

Dear diary
It feels funny how your life can go from being the worst thing every happening to the best thing every happening. I am still sad that Dan is dead but the camp the soldiers took me and the remaining women was the hidden pace of Niklas or whatever to call it. My eyes are full of tears for Dan and I am happy in my heart that Niklas lives even with a few injuries here and there. I cannot wait for him to tell me what has happen in his life doing the time we has been separated and I hope he is not mad for losing my weeding ring to those mercenaries. I do not have time to write more today as I just want to spend time with Niklas now.
Goodnight

Day 607

Dear diary
You would not believe how good it feels to be back in Niklas arms even that he is not giving me the only thing I want. I want to go back to my father’s camp and so we all three can be reunited even my father might ask what happened to Dan. I have not told Niklas about Dan yet as I worry my old flame for Niklas will get suffocated by his jealously as he was very jealous back in the days before the war and except for some aliens that showed me that humans cannot work together then what has changed. I know he was gone and that he has not told me what happened that day yet but I am sure that whatever the reason was then he had a very good reason or reasons to leave me behind. Maybe he thought he would save our baby. My eyes is getting wet just by the thought of it even I have done my best to keep my mind away from the subject. But to handle my sorrow I have decide to name him Randon which means wolf-shield as I feel he would have protected his mother against the aliens if he had to. I wish I could revive him, Dan and my mother so we all could be a happy family even Dan would not have been in my life if Niklas had not disappeared. I am not sure what to call him if he was a girl but it does not matter as it is dead.By the way I am glad to have you diary as it helps me get some of my heavy throughs out of my head.
Goodnight

Day 613

Dear diary
It feels good to be back with Niklas again even I am not sure how I will ever be able to tell him about Dan. I miss my father but the reasons from Niklas about why we have not returned there yet has been good so far and besides Niklas is the only human except Dan who has cared for me since my father sent me away to the research centre. I know it was his boss but still we still have not been in contact since the alien attack on the centre so how can he say he loves me when he cannot even make the army go looking for me when I am a mighty weapon against the aliens. I still wonder if I would have found Niklas if Dan had not died the day I held myself from using the rocks powers even that tears was jumping out of my eyes like shots from a machine gun. I am glad that they was stupid enough to take us to our old camp so I could gather the rocks so they could not find it there. I am still a bit shaky every time a guard past my tent as it reminds me of being in the case plus I keep waking up at night by my nightmares which has grown really bad since I was saved, I wish there was a doctor here who could give me some sleeping pills or something. I will try to sleep now.
Goodnight

Day 617

Dear diary
I wonder if my mind is connect to the rocks in more than one way as recently when I have been having nightmare shooting stars and maybe even meteorites is appearing on the sky like tonight. I hope that things goes well for us and that the aliens stay away this time. I do not want to see more death but at least I know how to use the rock now and if I ever get captures by aliens or humans I will fight my way out or die trying. I lost enough that way and yeah I know only Dan so far but that is far enough even that I got Niklas back. It is good to be with him again and I can feel he enjoys it as well even that he is busy being a leader. He sounds like a good leader and I am happy he is non longer sent out on missions like he was before. He told me that his leaders died under an alien attack and afterwards people just started to come to him for answer and he felt that he had to become the leader for them. I know that the dead of men and his former leaders as sometimes he is waking up with fire in his eyes and one time he even took a hard grasp around my throat. Of course it was scary when it happened, I even wept a bit which killed the fire in his eyes as soon they hit his hand. I still have a mark from it and he has one inside his soul as he cannot make himself kiss me before telling how sorry he is. I do not blame him for it, I just hope I can help him beat his demons some day like he will beat the real ones.
Goodnight

Day 619

Dear diary
I am getting tired of aliens, rocks and everything in between as today we was of course attacked by the aliens just as my nightmares and the shooting stars almost predicted. I wonder if the aliens can feel that I can control the rocks and that is why they keeps attack us after my nightmare. I want to walk away from it all to keep Niklas safe but guess would only make things worse for him. I know it is a bit harsh to say that another army, who helped us beat the aliens in the fight today, is a bad thing but the leaders of the army just took control over Niklas and his soldiers like they had been under them the entire time and made the regular soldiers once more. That means starting tomorrow, Niklas will get sent out in the field again and because I am a woman I cannot join him because he made me promise to keep the rocks a secret untill we knew more about the army and its leaders. I guess I will go to Niklas tent and spend the night so he knows I love him and will always be there for him. I know I told you a few days back that he hurt me once doing his sleep and yes he did but it was only because I entered his tent while he was having his nightmares. I hope if I sleep next to him, things will be better.
Goodnight

Day 631

Dear diary
Why does the world has to be so hard against me all the time. I am tried that Niklas is no longer a leader and is sent out on missions like he is some dog. I am not saying that him being a dog would be fine but maybe it would be a bit better if I had some friends here as no one have time for a woman like me, even I sure get some eyes from the guys from time to time. The best thing which could happen is if they found the new base of my father so I could at least be with him while Niklas was out or give me my time back with Dan, why did he has to die… I know why and it was because I knew how to use the rocks and not a regular young woman. I wonder if people would have more mood to be my friend if I did not have the rock powers. Guess I am back at blaming my father for all the things once more. Sorry father. That reminds me I have for some reason only call my father for father this entire diary so guess it is time to reveal his name. Brian Lorenzen is his name, it is not big deal. ANother things that annoyed me is that even that Niklas keep finding survivors they all avoid me like someone who has not shower for a month or so. No one gives a damm about me at the moment, except Niklas who has no time for me.
Goodnight

Day 641

Dear diary
Niklas and I had a talk today, his bosses wants me to learn them about how to use the rocks so we can use them against the aliens. Niklas wanted me to teach them while I was like no way, I have seen enough horror of what people can do with our own weapons and will so why should I teach them so magic rocks to make their job far more easy. Niklas says it might help me getting new friends, I guess I rather be friend less. Niklas also seemed harsh as he tried to almost force me to do it, I wonder if we even are in love anymore. I also wonder what Dan would have done if some new bosses has told him to teach them how to use the rocks. I am sure that Dan would have understood my No instead of turning harsh against me. Maybe my mood is better tomorrow so who knows if I changes my mind. Will sleep now just to end this stupid day.
Goodnight

Day 643

Dear diary
Today we was attacked by aliens and because there were so many of them I had to use the rocks to defend myself and some soldiers. Even I have still not decide to help other learn the powers it gave me some new perks or what to call them. I have gotten permission to join Niklas’s team and search for more rocks while being with him all the time instead of being at the camp with no one talk to. That is the best news I have since we have been under new management. Niklas is happy too even that some of his guys found it a bit weird to have a woman on the team when they are all men but Niklas made them agree. Maybe I can find more clues about my father place while out there as so far there have not been shooting stars for a while so I doubt we find any new rocks but I will never say never. As long I am with Niklas I do not care what the world bring against us plus his mood also changed for the better so guess he was just as tired of the bosses as me. I have been meaning to talk to Niklas about maybe try again with a baby but feels like the war against the aliens is making raising one quite hard so, so far I have decide to keep it in my head and just focus on other things. I hope my father is alive as I want him to be a grandfather.
Goodnight

Day 647

Dear diary
Today we was almost killed by a young woman around my age. I am not sure if she did by accident or really wanted to harm us but later when she tried again nothing happened. Sorry got interested in the death event that I completely forgot to tell you what happened. Well I am out on search with Niklas and it was early in the morning after a shooting star show yesterday and we was expecting aliens to attack us so we was all ready for a fight or so we though. Suddenly a bean like the one I can shoot from my rock divide our group in two without luckily killing anyone but before the soldiers had a change to fire back at crying was heard. We had found a woman who had been able to fire the rock and killing an alien in the progress. She was not sure how she did it but we are traveling home to base where I am sure the leaders will be trilled and force me to train her how to use the rocks or at least try. The woman has forgotten her name, so we decide to call her Anika until she either remembers or it will stick. I need to take care of her now as she has been hurt a bit while being on her own so have to go now.
Goodnight

Day 653

Dear diary
It is good to that we found Anika as first of all we are learning more about the rocks by the day with her around. I know Dan tried his best as well but he did not give us much new knowledge. Anika says it hurt a bit in her chest when firing but not so bad and she can easily turn it off. Another good thing is that I have more time for Niklas even he is busy but today we at least had the chance to share a meal instead of almost just saying good morning or good night. I wonder if we will have the chemistry we had before the aliens and before he left me last time. I tried to small talk doing the meal we shared but it quickly turned a bit shower as he was annoyed on himself for not being there to protect the baby even that he knows in died inside me and not by something outside. The last good thing about Anika is that I do not need to go rock hunting every day as some times she just go while I stay back and search for more clues about them plus I am not the only one getting tested all the time which relaxes my body as well. The leaders talk about maybe make me the leader of the small research team as they feel like I am the most knowledgeable on the subject, not sure if that is true or not. Anika feels clever too so maybe I will just that we share the job if the leaders decide I shall be the one. Now I will rest as I have to get up early tomorrow.
Goodnight

Day 659

Dear diary
I forgot to write you my dear diary but need to get my head empty as it is full of nightmares of Niklas killing Dan, Dan trying to kill me and aliens running around killing all people like a soft gun war. I wish the stars could help me calm down but guess of all the time I have been focused on the sky this one has been the worst as it is so full of stars that I hope some of them is at least old satellites or other space things falling to the earth as if not then we are in deep shit. I wish Niklas was here but he had to be out on mission tonight, I will blame my life choices if he does not return. Wow it is 3am, so I guess I need to go to bed again now or I will have a hard time teaching Anika anything, before I let the pen go I want to say I wonder what her real name is, maybe Eve like the first female human according to Cristian believes.
Goodnight

Day 661

Dear diary
The shooting stars a few weeks back did not bring an attack on our base but I was still a bit worried when some of Niklas’s team arrived early at home with blood on their faces and cloches. A few of them had died but Niklas was not one of them, I know I am sounding cold but saying that I am happy he is still alive because how could I live in this world if I had no one who care of me. I bet you are think why are you not just throwing yourself at people but it is hard for me, ok. Maybe if Niklas dies again I might find another like Dan, who knows. I have still not given up in find my father as I wonder what happen to him and the others. I do not mind to find out his is dead as long as I get some papers explaining why he did not find me in the first place after the alien attack. Of other news my belly is acting wierd, maybe I am soon ready to try become a mother again soon but so far Niklas has either been uninterested or too busy. Btw I do care for strangers and I hope that no one was hurt or killed by the latest shower. Anika still do not remember her name which is kinda weird given that her injuries did not seem that bad but she managed to fire the rocks once more before starting to scream of pain which ended up making her faint. She is back up already, but I think we have already learned more together than while they was searching me on their own. I guess we need to learn how to control the beams without becoming tried or have pains. Guess I have rambled enough about things now so will sleep now.
Goodnight

Day 673

Dear diary
Dear God, please let my father and most of his friends and other important figures be alive as I know from Niklas that the aliens has been in your camp and destroyed it. The attack was so bad that there was still fires all over the place and even that Niklas do not know my father, he calmed that he did not find any bodies which was not burned to unrecognizable so there was nothing for me to see. I wish that Niklas had allowed me to show the power of the rocks before so I could help maybe have helped my father is his fight. I am not blaming Niklas even my wish, I blame myself for having the power to begin with or the stupid aliens which arrived here in the first place. I talked about that to some of the men who was researching the rocks and not one of the had a single idea about why the aliens had landed here on earth of all places as so far they knew they had only be trying to destroy us and not change the planet to their environment or dig after gold or something. I hope my father is not blaming me for not being there when he needed me but why would he as he was not there when I needed him. Guess my mind cannot find out if it is a good day even that I do not know if my father is dead or alive. Before my mind is getting completely out of this world I will try to sleep
Goodnight

Day 677

Dear diary
Guess you can always do a trade to get your will, even in this world or rather what is left of it. Until now only researchers has been trying to help the young woman Anika with the rocks and its power because I felt I needed some space from the rocks and I also wanted more time with Niklas the few hours or days he are home from mission. Now I am helping them because I know how to use them or rather I think I do as so far it has not made Anika able to use them but I sure we are getting there soon. In return the leaders has allowed Nikas to search for the base of my father and I know what you are think, no many days ago you told it was found burning and yes it was but after getting permission to search the left overs I found clues about that the base destruction was a cover up and now Niklas has been ordered out to find the base so we can all be together against the aliens. Guess I have not been so happy for the human race in a long time. I am smiling as I am writing all of this even I am still a bit annoyed on my father for leaving me to died after the alien attack but now I think they had their own issues to deal with and that he would have been there for me if they had the chance to save me. I want to sleep with peace in my heart beside I know I will get awaken soon again because the bosses wants the power of the rocks soon and guess sleep is for the weak.
Goodnight

Day 683

Dear diary
Guess the aliens are no longer holding back as they has been attacking our base again, good thing that Anika was ready for the fight as well because it really took a lot of my energy to use the rocks this time. I can see shooting stars are on the sky tonight so I guess I better get some sleep while I can or thing looks pretty bad for us. Niklas has not found my father yet but he will continue searching with fewer men this time as we need them to defend until we find the army as we could really use some help
Goodnight

Day 691

Dear diary
We are back at square one in more than one sense, the aliens is taking us out one by one and things are looking really dark now. Before I tell you why then I can say no shooting stars tonight so I can use a bit of my energy to explain you what have happen. First of all I think we are down to about half of the men we were when we was found by the army, they are not all dead but many are and those who are not are having really bad injuries. Second I am now the only one able to use the rocks again as Anika was killed today and even that we tried to revive her, her life was out of our hands. I hope I can help defend us now as I really want to have a baby some day in a peaceful world. I have still not mentions the thoughts for Niklas but I hope he will too, once this is over. I do not know what else to say other than I will keep fighting and writing this diary until my last breath, even if I have to write with my own blood.
Goodnight

Day 701

Dear diary
We are saved or something. Niklas found my father’s base and now we are having two armies to be able to fight against the aliens so now I can relax again. I will still try to learn others how to use the rocks so we can defend even better against the aliens but I can also spend some time with my father. We have not been able to talk about what happened at the research centre yet but I am sure he has a pretty good explanation as he seem really sad and happy to see me. I guess I can almost forgive any reason as long he did not send me to die but why would he do that to his own daughter. Tears is feeling my eyes when I think of those who has died so far Anika who never remembered her real name, Dan who love me and my mother while we tried to escape. I cannot make myself write more today except for may they rest in peace with the rest of the souls who has given their lives for a better tomorrow.
Goodnight

Day 709

Dear diary
Niklas is still cold as ice even after explaining how sorry I am to him as it just flew out of my mouth. In case you do not remember then I by mistake called Niklas for Dan the other day and of course he wanted to know who it was and he got pretty annoyed on me plus one of his soldier coworkers as he thought that was the Dan I talked about. I told him the true story about how that he had disappeared and that I had lost our child. The only kindness I was getting was from my father and when he sent me away to the research centre, I had none plus how was I suppose to know he was alive when he had left me. Since then Niklas has been given me the coldest shoulder I have ever had in my entire life. My father say it will go over soon and it is just the war that is making him act weird. I am not so sure as things was going well between us and after the armies has joined forces we are even having time for each other. I do not know what to do to make things work out between us so for now I will just try to search for my rocks and people who can use them so we can win this war for good as those aliens is really starting to annoy me.
Goodnight

Day 719

Dear diary
It is more than 2 weeks ago since I called Niklas for Dan and we have finally talked a bit about and he is still angry about it and even that I told him it was not the soldier Dan in his group, he almost killed him. I never knew that Niklas was like this and even I still love him, I am also a bit scared of him now because I did not want anyone to get hurt by my actions. I am sorry that I am bad but I still do not know how I was supposed to know he was alive. If Niklas had given me any sign I would have no felt so alone which made the things happen. I am not sure if it is my fear which is talking now but sometimes I wish Dan was still here instead so things could have continued. My father says that some people is having a hard time cheating but how can he call it cheating when I did not know he was alive. I guess will go to sleep before my head gets too full of sad thoughts so tears will ruin my sleep.
Goodnight

Day 727

Dear diary
Today will be the last time I will ever mention Dan as I want to show Niklas that I am 100% focused on us even he is acting more and more wierd by the day and he even asked the leaders to go on a mission tonight and left me alone here. Good thing I still have my father to talk or would be like back when I had no one when Niklas was sent on mission. I wonder what Anika would have told me if she was here. I miss having a female friend so If Niklas is not back in base tomorrow I will start talking to random girls and women untill someone wants to talk to me or at least tell what I have to do, to make them talking. If nothing works I will ask the leaders to send me on another rock hunt as I think I need some air. Niklas will be in my heart untill he either starts showing feelings for other women or something like that. It is so annoying to think this would have been soon our 1 year of marriage and instead of that we are pissed at each other and acting strange while an alien vs human war is going on. If I knew my life would be like this back when I started my first diary I would have not fallen for Dan and maybe not become pregnant with child. But I guess that is just how life is. So dear God please make my life better soon.
Goodnight

Day 733

Dear diary
Today has been a day like any other, I wonder if me and Niklas ever gets over that I was with Dan for a while that I thought Niklas was dead. I am really sorry for all of this and I promise I will be good until I know the true dead next time. Of course I do not want him to disappear or die again so help me god, let me get back with Niklas soon. We have still not… wait someone is screaming, I will write later…

I want to escape but it is too late for me so guess I will gather my last strength. Niklas has been replaced by an alien which was why has been so cold to me. It hurts when I am writing by have to continue. The aliens has attacked us from inside, my father is dead and I do not know to write this as I do not understand it but blood is running from my belly so cannot think straight anymore but the rocks was fake. The beams they made was somehow the aliens and it was just a way for them to make me arrive in important places with important people and all. I have doomed the human race but I am dying now so I could not even save myself as Niklas was an alien all along.
Goodbye world, if there is not life after this then thanks for the time I had… and God please save…

739

Dear dairy
Did you really ThInK I was Death… Think aGain, my Dear HUman, did you ReallY think I could HaVe survivED this LONG as a huMan. You and ManY oTHers before YOU has fallEN IN my Trap so PleaSE DIE and let US take over your PLanet… Enjoy YOUR last days AliVE as We will find you. Stupid TranslatOR won’t W