Day 607

Dear diary

You would not believe how good it feels to be back in Niklas arms even that he is not giving me the only thing I want. I want to go back to my father’s camp and so we all three can be reunited even my father might ask what happened to Dan. I have not told Niklas about Dan yet as I worry my old flame for Niklas will get suffocated by his jealously as he was very jealous back in the days before the war and except for some aliens that showed me that humans cannot work together then what has changed. I know he was gone and that he has not told me what happened that day yet but I am sure that whatever the reason was then he had a very good reason or reasons to leave me behind. Maybe he thought he would save our baby. My eyes is getting wet just by the thought of it even I have done my best to keep my mind away from the subject. But to handle my sorrow I have decide to name him Randon which means wolf-shield as I feel he would have protected his mother against the aliens if he had to. I wish I could revive him, Dan and my mother so we all could be a happy family even Dan would not have been in my life if Niklas had not disappeared. I am not sure what to call him if he was a girl but it does not matter as it is dead.By the way I am glad to have you diary as it helps me get some of my heavy throughs out of my head.

Goodnight

Day 601

Dear diary

It feels funny how your life can go from being the worst thing every happening to the best thing every happening. I am still sad that Dan is dead but the camp the soldiers took me and the remaining women was the hidden pace of Niklas or whatever to call it. My eyes are full of tears for Dan and I am happy in my heart that Niklas lives even with a few injuries here and there. I cannot wait for him to tell me what has happen in his life doing the time we has been separated and I hope he is not mad for losing my weeding ring to those mercenaries. I do not have time to write more today as I just want to spend time with Niklas now.

Goodnight

Day 599

Dear diary

Stupid rocks why did you not work when I needed you to work so I could have saved Dan from the leader of the mercenaries. But at least I am free now as the rock started to glow and I killed a guard before the places was raided by soldiers. A few women died in the fight for freedom but the mercenaries are all gone from the face of the earth. I wonder if the new soldiers are any good or if they are just our new lords but I overheard them talk about bringing us to their leader Niklas and the way the soldier said the name, really turned a old fire in me that made me believe that the Niklas they was talking about is my old Niklas. I know it is too early to be happy for something but after the loss of Dan and the mercenaries really made my mind and body need some love instead of dead. I asked the soldiers when we was going to the camp with Niklas and they told me that we are 2 days away from there and the plan is going there after a free night of sleep. I am so happy now that the only thing which can ruin my mind is does stupid rocks and shooting stars but even in a clear sky as today I feel like the moonlight is protecting me as not a single meteorite is in sight and I have been watching for the past hour while I tried to write down my dead. I can hear a few ladies moaning gentle in the night, guess they and the soldiers missed some love compared to the horrors which was filling our days here.

Goodnight

Day 593

Dear diary

I do not know where to start today as I am so sad and annoyed on myself that writing this only hurt my heart even more. Guess I just try write it out and deal with the facts afterwards. Deep breath… Dan is death… yes you read that right, he is death and it is my fault as I had every possibility to save him from the mercenaries and does who hired them in the first place. Let me start from the beginning of the day. I was awaken by noise in the camp and before I knew anything my cage was opened and I was forced on a march where we were two soldiers, one of the hires, Dan and me. I thought at first that they were going to force Dan to see me getting you know but instead they force us back to the research centre where we had left the rocks behind. You see, without my knowledge had Dan been talking doing his fever about the rocks and how he were my lover and all while a guard had heard it and decided that it was the best clue about the rocks they had been having since their search started. So we got to the place where we had hidden the rocks and they had forced me to dig for them. When they was done they wanted me to use them but even after what seem like millions of tries and tears running down my cheeks I could not make them work. So what did they do, well they pointed a gun at Dan chest who, thankfully, was too sick to notice what was happen, and just like on movies when the hero cannot do what the evil mastermind wants they shoot him and he died before I could reach him and tell him how much I loved him and that those bastards would get paid for what they had done to him. Now they have the rocks and they have the only person in the world able to use them too. So I wonder how long before they take away my dairy too so I can root in hell.

Goodnight

Day 587

Dear diary

Dan is sick and even that he is getting some of my food he is getting low on energy once more, and I am sad that I cannot do more than feeding him the best parts of my meals. I wish I could help him become even better as if he dies then why should I continue living my life as then another love of my life has died. Dan wants me to stop feeding him and focus on my own survival instead of his but I am not going to do that and those mercenaries will feel my waith if anything happens to him and they are a part of it. My mind is out for today and too focusing on every little noise coming from Dan so I will sign off already.

Goodnight

Day 577

Dear diary

This morning I woke up to a loud noise and I hoped it was the aliens attacking again, giving us another chance to escape as Dan is getting better by the day we are here as the amount of food is helping battling whatever sickness he had. Anyway the noise was instead 3 helicopters full of new mercenaries plus their hires who quickly have started to check out the women in more than one way. Yes I can hear them scream in pain when the men do unspeakable things to them and the guns shots that silence them. I wish I had the rock or a gun so I could kill some of them. Dan tell me to clam down because there is nothing I can do about it but my mind is full of crazy thoughts and I wish I could end it all soon, good thing there are plenty of women in the camp so there are a small risk that they get to me anytime soon. I wish I could fly the helicopter and take Dan with me, but I can’t plus I have no clue about how they have avoided getting shot down by the aliens space ships. I wonder if they have a deal with them too. Of good news then Dan is more or less back to his formers self so I can get a bit more of my dinner again.

Goodnight

Day 571

Dear diary

I am sorry that my heart is full of joy but today the aliens came and attacked the came as I expected would happen after the beautiful meteor shower 2 nights ago. It seem like the mercenaries was not ready for the aliens as I guess 5 of them died including the guard at Dan and I’s cages. I would have tried to escape if I was alone but the strength of Dan is pretty low at the moment, I think he might be sick, so I decided to stay behind with him. I hope that the next time we get a chance to run, Dan is better and everything else works out. Maybe it will happen sooner than later as I heard a few of the mercenaries talk about how they wanted twice the pay from those who hired them without talking about who hired them. The reason I am sorry that my heart is full of joy is because some of the women in other cases was killed doing the attack and even that I am bit annoyed on my fellow humans at the moment then I did not want innocent people to die but at least that might help on the amount of food we get as less mouths to feed. If Dan still not get more food than he has been getting so far I will start give him even more of mine as if he dies I have no reason to live as I worry my father is capture in another camp or worse dead as why else has he not found me yet. I am tired of people with power as they do not care of normal people. Anyway guess I will go to bed before my mood ruins my sleep.

Goodnight

Day 569

Dear diary

Every heard of the expression “the enemy of my enemy is my friend”? No, well it is an ancient proverb which suggests that two groups can or should work together against a common enemy. I am wondering if that will happen soon as right now the sky is full of a beautiful meteor shower and the way the mercenaries is reacting then I do not think they know what it means. I really hope they do not as then we might have a chance to escape when the aliens attacks if the mess they make is big enough. Of course I know that it also leaves a chance for us to die in the fight but guess it does not matter anymore. In case you are wondering why I am not making any freinds with the other women here then it is because for some reason our cases are place in groups of when we was caught so only me and Dan is close to each other and then I would say there is 10 metres or so to the next group of case and we have no chance to talk to each other because of the guards so I am all alone in the world with Dan.

Goodnight

Day 563

Dear diary

Today I am writing with tears in my eyes over today events. A researcher from the research centre was somehow alive and was found by the mercenaries. Even from a distance I could see in her eyes that she recognized me and that if things had gone differently she would maybe have revealed the secret about me and maybe Dan too depending on how much she knew as the days after the main attack on the centre is a bit blurry for me. Not sure why, maybe the amount of food is getting to low as I am still sharing my food with Dan. Anyway the woman tried to escape the mercenaries and guess they was in a bit bad mood as instead of chasing her again they just her down like an animal doing hunt before yelling to us in cases that if some one tries to run, they will get shot and not recaptured. It made me want to escape even more, if only we could get to the rocks back at the camp we would be free. Dan managed to stop me for tonight so guess I will just seat her blame the human world for not helping each other when needed instead of still forming forces against each other. I wish I had been more than a kindergarten teacher in my now old life so I could have helped those in need and maybe have given us a better chance against the aliens

Goodnight

Day 557

Dear diary

I wish I could write more but guess once life get boring when you are locked up in a case with no chance of getting out and that the only thing which are changing is the number of woman and the amount of food Dan is getting. I overheard the two guards talking about getting paid and one of them could not wait for the money to arrive so he could use the money even that the aliens made it a bit hard to use them one day. He hoped that the payers have a great idea to make guns and things like that out of the rocks. Hang in there Dan, I will try to get us out soon

Goodnight

Day 547

Dear diary

I wonder who the mercenaries is looking for as they keep bring more and more woman to the camp and they look like similar to me. I also wonder where they keep finding these woman as even we was many woman in the research centre they are all dead now, only me and Dan survived. Speaking of surviving then Dan is getting less and less food because of the growth in numbers of women that the mercenaries has to feed even that they seem like they have having plenty of resources. It makes me wish that we was able to use the rocks to get out of here or at least bring more food for Dan. I know that you are wondering why we are not but you know we do not have any powers over them and we did not have any in the first place after we learned the soldiers was not our soldiers. I give Dan some of my food doing the night as that has not gone done even with the extra women. I do it at night because I do not want them to think we are more than friends as after all Dan is just a man. On the positive side then we have not been attacked by the aliens since we got to getting with the mercenaries even they are not in our team.

Goodnight

Day 541

Dear diary

I do not know where to begin as it has been 14 crazy days and I am not sure what I can or cannot write in this diary as Dan and I have been captured by soldiers which I guess answers your question of how it happened. In case you are not the best at reading between the lines then we watched some soldiers arrive at our centre 14 days ago and because we had not seen any soldiers for a long time we expected it was the army which had finally learned about our fate but of course it was not them but mercenaries who had been hired by another country to find rocks and people who can use them. Luckily Dan and I cannot find out how to use them but they still keep us captured for some reason. Guess it is better than being alone against the aliens. They have been feeding me but because the person they search for is a woman Dan has not been giving nearly enough but they have been so kind to give me my diary back so I can continue the story. I am not sure they understand my language or writing.

Goodnight

Day 523

Dear diary

I do not want to live anymore and I do not want to write much today as we had a major attack yesterday. The aliens came and took the lives of the remain people that me and Dan tried to protect. The last person who was here alive other than us has just taken her last breath so I am writing this with tears in my eyes and many more who has already run down my checks with mixed feelings of lost hope and anger on the army not coming to help us. If I get out of this alive I am going to blame my father for everything as he knew at least that I was here.

Goodnight

Day 521

Dear diary

Today I have good and bad news. The good news is that Dan has learned how to use the rock like me so now we are two who can use the rocks so now we are the defenders against the aliens but since we are humans we cannot stay awake 100% and I think the aliens knows this as they are trying to attack us when we are asleep. So we are slowly losing more and more people even that we have decide to make a bass in the old research centre. They are working hard to connect to the army as we still have not seen or heard from them. I wonder why my father is not worried for me as at least he knows he should have been heard form me by now or maybe even have seen me if the bosses was talking about sending me back to the base. That was the bad news. I also wonder how they get reach us when we are using every gun to defend the few openings but guess I need to focus on sleeping now instead of that.

Goodnight

Day 509

Dear diary

Today the aliens attacked again and we have not heard for the army. We are talking about getting help from them but most of the survivors they are either scared, don’t know where the army is or both. There are still meetings about it and the only reason I am able to write in my diary right now is that I am taking care of the injured people who is sleeping at the moment. I do not know what the future brings but I hope we are soon together with the army. I wonder why they are not here yet as it is now the evening on the six day since the first attack. I hope we get help soon. I have to help so no more writing today

Goodnight

Day 503

Dear diary

If I live thought this then I will never complain about my life again. My hands is still shaking and I do not know what to do, but at least I am alive and so is Dan plus a lot of the researchers. Sorry my mind is just as shaking as my hands plus my belly hurts leave not much focus for the diary today. We was attacked by aliens, and I have no clue how they found us but they did and they hurt us bad. I managed to fight off a few of them with my rock power which for some reason worked, maybe it only works when the user is under pressure like rocks which makes sense if you look at the aliens. Dan is calling for me and because I was a kindergarten teacher before the world was turned upside down and they need my skills in health care.

Goodnight

Day 499

Dear diary

I am not in mood to write today but guess my mood will get better if I do so here goes nothing. The reason I am down today is that the chef of my father and the boss of Dan has decide that I will get sent back to the camp because they fear that humans will attack us because they have me and the research centre is not an army so they cannot protect us and the army is busy being an army so the only way to save me and the rest of research centre is to send me back to the army. I hope they can figure out how to use the rocks I found doing the past 4 ground expeditions. If you think I am done the bad things then I am not as my father was hurt doing the last attack from the Rockys, he will live so of course I want to be with him to help him get back to his best but that means I will have to leave Dan as for some reason his boss won’t allow him to leave even that his is mainly researching me and not the stupid rocks. I wish those rocks and Rockys had stayed in space and leaved our tiny earth alone. But then again I would not have meet Dan if they had not arrived and not sure if I just miss human touch or if it is true but in some ways he is better than Niklas. I wish the bosses would allow me to decide my own life for a change.

Goodnight

Day 491

Dear diary

Today was a good day as I have gotten some fresh air on the ground as yes I got permission to join the ground crew to search for some more rocks but Dan was not allowed to join today. As this is the second day in a row on the ground I can say that the fresh air really has helped my mind as I did not have any nightmares last night. The search for rocks also went well even we did not find anyone but at least we did not get attacked by the aliens or Rockys that I leaned that the other researchers call them because their arrival in shooting stars also known as meteorite and their rock looking skin when they do not look human. We did not get attacked by other humans as well. Someone is calling my name now so I will take a break to find it what is happening then I plan to be back here. I know you are just a diary but without Dan or my father then you are almost my only friend so it feels weird to just leave you.

I am back now and I just watched 30-50 shooting stars in different colors and I need to hurry packing as we are trying to reach the research centre without getting notice as who knows where the aliens landed.

Goodnight

Day 487

Dear diary

Today I will be a short one as my mind is hurt and tired now. I am a begging God to stop me from having nightmares another night. Dan is trying to help me the best he can be even he is not making my mood as great as he did before. I am not sure what is happening inside my head but got some painkillers and some sleeping pills which I took an half hour ago and I am yawning like an alcoholic unable to stop drinking so will cut off now

Goodnight

Day 479

Dear diary

Today we have given up on the testing of me and the rock so we asked Dan’s boss permission to leave the research centre to look for more rocks or rather that is what we are telling them. In reality we are just trying to escape the centre for a while so I can get some fresh air and we can get some time alone. We got permission to go alone as we told them it would perhaps be best to be alone up there instead of sending an entire army up there. Dan have been training to use a rifle and I got permission to talk the rock with me as I pretended that it I needed for the mission to be succeeded. I feel bad for lying to them but they was the ones who talks about sending me back to my father without Dan or the rock. I hope we find something to give them and to make my stay longer as I know I did not want to stay at first but now I will not leave without Dan. Anyway need to pack and sleep as I am sure I need it for tomorrow.

Goodnight